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† About Camp † • What to Expect? • Experiencing life with Jesus is about Knowing God, Trusting God, Walking with God, Surrendering to God and Making God Known to Others! A time of fun filled activities awaits you as you discover the Life you were meant to Live... Come and be RESTORED through a series of interesting theme talks, fellowship, games and more!!! What are you waiting for? Sign up today!!!! Everyone is Welcomed to Join Us! • Verse • "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!" 2 Corinthians 5:17 • Camp Details • Date: 6th to 9th October 2008 (Mon - Thurs) Venue: To be confirmed Price: Earlybird Special $45 (13/08/08 to 5/09/08) Usual Camp Fee $55 (6/09/08 to 20/09/08) *camp fee includes a camp shirt

Please direct all enquires to us at restored08@gmail.com


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Registration closes on Saturday, 20th September 2008
*we will not guarantee a camp shirt after online registration closes

• What do I have to do? •

1) Copy and fill up your particulars as follows and email us at restored08@gmail.com

Subject line
"Registration for Camp"

Content
Name in Full:

Sex: Male/Female
Date of Birth:
NRIC Number:
Address:
Hand Phone Number:
Home Phone Number:
Email Address:

School:
Course/Year:
Student Number(NP):
Church:
Crusader: Yes/No
Invited By(Optional):

Shirt Size(eg. 34, 36...):
Blood Type:
Health Considerations:
Food Allergy/Special Diet:
Emergency Contact Person:
Emergency Contact Number:

2) Upon submission of your registration, you should receive a confirmation email within 48hours which will include your Particulars, total Camp Fee, Indemnity Form and Parent Consent Form. Please print out both the forms attached to the email, complete it, and bring it to the camp on 6th Oct'08.

If there are any errors in your particulars, please reply to the confirmation email. Thanks!

3) Next, you can check that your name appears in the campers list as seen below.

4) One week before the actual camp, you should receive an email with the "to bring" list and the confirmed meeting venue and time for the first day of camp.

5) On the day of the camp, do remember to bring the Camp Fee ($45 or $55), Indemnity Form and Parents Consent Form. Campers without these forms will not be allowed to stay over at the camp.

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† Publicity †

You can aid us in publicizing this camp too. Good things should be shared, so tell your friends about it now!

• How can I help? •

1) Upload any of these images and use it as your msn display picture =D

Plus! You can also include the camp details at your msn personal message/nickname. Here are some suggestions:

a) "Are you ready to be restored? [6-9 Oct 2008] Check it out at npcampuscrusade.blogspot.com"

b) "Do you want to be restored? 6-9 October 2008, ask me more!"

c) "RESTORED 2008 [6-9th Oct] Sign Up NOW! npcampuscrusade.blogspot.com"

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All you have to do is put this image link at your blog which will bring them here when clicked! Simply copy and paste the code below the image into your blog.

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Yup. I will be going, because its God related stuff, and I was pondering about it when Cerise asked me to go to keep her company and that was the final reason that sent me over the edge. Ahahah.


Everyone who is in NP and a Christian, I strongly encourage you to come for this camp okay! I mean, no matter what church you're in, i'm sure that they've been calling you again and again and again to REACH OUT to the people in your schools, cause that's where the most opportunity to save takes place, and if you're having difficulty doing so because you're like the only one in your church that is in your particular course/class whatever and its hard to gain a foothold, this will really really really really help. That big thing we talk about where THE CHRISTIANS OF THE SCHOOL UNITE? This has super opportunity to turn into that, if only you come down. We're not just going to sing and pray about near-revival that we see as we're on our kness blahblahblah, we're GOING TO DO IT. And there are more Christians than you think there are, all around you, struggling with exactly the same issues and hoping for someone else beside them. And this is where you're going to find out who they are! THIS. IS. THE. TIME.


So if you're free, or are convicted by God to come, do sign up okay? And even if you're not coming, don't worry about it, but pray that God WILL turn it into something great. Camps are..a logistical horror. I know. Pray for everyone sacrificing their time to run this thing, because sheesh its not walk in the park. And I'm not just saying that <_< href="http://npcampuscrusade.blogspot.com/">http://npcampuscrusade.blogspot.com/

(:


5.45 am. Hoooooboyyy. But I'm not goign to be retarded and blame lack of study on doing stuff like Godblogposts haha when its obvious that I've been wasting time over games and such. Ah well.

*buggers off to pray, and then something constructive*

Or..

I could try to keep going. Haha. Momentary surge of brief energy. I think it came from pressing "Publish Post" heh. I know right, such a mass commer.

:rolls eyes:

But yeah, you know about the testimony, I was kindaaa stressed? Because like I'm a mass commer and all. I should KNOW this stuff. Like standing and delivering in front of a crowd. If I can't do that what the hell am I doing in my course man :/

Then again, so much so much so much I long for serving God wholeheartedly cause I crave the whole He will give me the strength to do His work because its HIS work and my focus is right kinda thing, and it'll come into place(:

And it was that time, heck, the first time really, i've done any tangible kind of serving in the church whatsoever, and yeah I guess it was good, I think (:


I WAS terrified, that I'd break into all the problems i know I have with speeches? Taking too long and too short over the wrong parts, forgetting to say something that is a really important hearttouching part whatever?

See, the difference when you do something for God, you KNOW that no matter how you think you are going to screw up, God is NOT going to let his message screw up for the people He intends to hear it. Haha. So like the whole put words into your mouth thing? And maybe even taking out words? Hahahahaha He's got it covered. Its part of His plan. If you can't even trust God with doing His work in His own temple to His own people, what can you trust him for! Haha.


I missed out a couple of not-very-vital-but-quite-cool things that I could have said, but its not about me, is it(:

And if God thought it wasn't that important, so be it ahahahah.

With speeches, it DOESN'T MATTER how good or brilliant your drafts are, the only thing your audience ever will know is what they heard, Heck, I entirely forgot I had notes in my hand, I was wondering what that flapping piece of thing in my hand was :s


Which only goes to show my state of mind in that point..


Lol. Not good maaannn. As in, people and lots of people! have come up and told me it was a very good testimony, and people have been encouraged, and God has really used it to move them in whatever way haha, and everyone I thank you for that, its encouraging to me too, but I must say that that had absolutely nothing to do with me, and everything to do with God(:

Like how He does for me and Hannah so often,unknowingly telling each other EXACTLY what we're semi-dwelling on, so we're growing and stuff. :D

its like I type this now. And I have time, to think and pause about what I want to tell you, my reader. And I am in control of the situation. But in the end, I know that its just shooting into the wind, and whether you got the effect that I was trying to achieve or not, it was something else, but God blessed you greatly anyway, is something I cannot tell until after I've pressed "Publish". Right, and Glory to God if anything I have ever written has ever been useful to anyone(:

Except with public speaking, I don't have time on the spot, to stop, to go back and forth and stuff. So its like shooting into the wind, half-blindly. You know like how when you play a sport? And maybe you're like me, you are running intelligently, and seeing passes and strategies and stuff, and suddenly you get the ball and your world degenerates into feet, ball, stick, floor. And you're running on instinct. And everything is a blur and you forget you have teammates?


Yah. Blank slate of auto-pilot. Haha. The thing to beat that, as anyone who's been in a team territorial sport, is training. Training to become comfortable so you're more aware, and when you're more aware and relaxed you can adapt greatly to surroundings if need be. Like for instance just now I entirely forgot there was a clock that I could look at, I was firmly locked on crowd? Yeah. Lol. So trainnniiing.

As in, I know how I was up there lah. And I know I need to get better at this thing. I mean, if God blessed you greatly today, I'm glad(: But there's so much more I can do. I want to reach that level of where I not just seem comfortable, I really am, like Pastor Jen and Michael Ross Watson and stuff, where I'm at ease and aware enough to adapt to something, to bring God's Word over with a joke, with the members of the congregation, taking my time internally on the spot to make sure God's Word comes out as well as I can possibly strive for(:


So yeah. But the verdict? I liked it up there.

Or somethinnggg. See where God leads I guess. But its a stepping stone Lord. To Your work, the work You have called me to do :D



But yeah(: You are in control(:



Birthday gifts! :DDD


Mostly notes, aha, but hey, i mentioned earlier before that I love notes. Tangible notes. The rough, but heartfelt, scribbled on notebook paper kinda ones. The ones that no matter how the years change, will ALWAYS reflect on the people you two were, sender and receiver, and the relationship that you had (:


Yeah. Haha. So Sherry, thank you(: You're a huge blessing you know? It boggles the mind how we're barely met, and randomly, and our worlds are so far apart, but we're good friends simply because God had a sit-down and decided that He'd like us to be near the best of friends(:

Hahaaahahahaa. And you've been huge to me. :D So smilleeee, and wait for your own birthday XD

Nat: Hey you! AHahahahah. I can't wait to see how you're gonna turn out when you're our age. Heh. I mean it. We're all waiting. Me, Keenan, whoever. Lololol. Thankkk youuuu !(:

Charlene: Girl. You're amazing. Nothing else I need to say already. Aahahahha. : D

Charmaine: Hello you. I'm still not quite sure how 1 hug plus 2 hugs cancels each other out and becomes 1 hug, but hey. You give good hugs. Hahhahaha. Its like I almost live to say goodbye to you...Thank you for remembering and just you watch out for your own birthday. :D

Everybody else who wished me happy birthday, mostly in a semi-state of shock that it was, thank you so much and don't worry about it ahahahah. I was trying to keep it low-key. Strange aversion to calling attention to myself for some reason, i think i'm not quite sure how to handle it..

No really. Persecution and torment and bickering I can take, but straight up compliments I honestly have no idea how to react other than a simple shy "thank you" :s. I'm not a josh haha. Idk. Lol. Someone could teach me maybe...


And finally: Hannah (:


Do you know how much I love you girl, right now, in Christ? :D I love the frog. I love that the present you gave me is from, about, and lives and breathes God :D I love that how they're notes that are going to be near-timeless, that I will look on again and again, and still something that I can apply EVERY DAY :D And I love the note. And I love how you know EXACTLY what i'm going through with the whole not every-day thinking about God :s thing and putting it in exactly the way that I've been thinking it, and identifying with it in a way that can ONLY be put in your heart by God? (: (: (: (: (:

People, this is someone you have to watch out for okay. Look out! Before she sweeps into your life and turns it whirlwind-upside-down with all the love God has given her :D



(: (: (: (: (:


:D :D :D :D


See now i'm all cheered up again. Ahahahaha.

Alright. I think I managed to put up everything that needed to be put up. :D


Rah. We'll see how the day plays out I guess. I haven't been that great, but what matters is now and the future, and grades aren't EVERYTHING. Hee. Not that I shouldn't try to do well anyway to honour God...


Heh. Latery'all. :D

God you are Amazing(:

*moves to sofa cause hopefully it will put me in a better frame of mood*

Ahhahaha. Okay yes last post rants. This post is about allll the good things :D


Thank you God (: Thank you EVERYONE who has popped by to wish me happy birthday. And like :D

So. Went to school to get all my notes for mrm on friday, spent the whole day trying to study. Yarr. Ah well :/ And then laters at 7.15 theres church! :DDD


And i'm kind stoned cause I haven't slept the previous night, again for no good reason, but hey (:

On the bus to church, I'm pondering whether said testimony that all you guys know about by now should be pushed to next week. Cause I have papers and all, and if im thinking about how i present testimony, I have less time to focus on already tight study schedule?


And I ask God, and He laughs and tells me "No Keann. Tomorrow. This can't wait. I'll hold onto your other stuff for you."

So I'm like "Oh well".

Hahahahaahah.


And I bugger around to church and i'm kinda lost, because leaders cell or something is happening too, and i have no phone? So I wander about the hawker and church for awhile until someone points me upstairs to 40A finally. Heh.


And it was good! I mean, it wasn't ubergood, but it was reallygood :D

Cause there was this blackout as we entered worship, but we kept going on, it was dark and hot, but the darkness I think actually helped us to draw closer to God? Like even after the lights came back on we switched them off just because : D


And then prayer for schools. Yup Yup. Like Fuel-up! And there was this girl from SAJC, but I don't know her so ah well lol. It was good and stuff. Like, people we want to be saved and stuff. It was interesting how for Ngee Ann, we didn't have to think hard about names of people we wanted to be saved? Showed that all of us there had people on our minds already haha.


Or something. Sooo. Why do we pray? And why do we pray again? I mean, God is in control ANYWAY, right? And how does praying more than once have any effect anyway? I mean, its like oh you told God already, God knows, you're good to go.


And the answer I want to give that that we learnt at Poly Day of Prayer is that Prayer Works. Because God wants to work THROUGH us, it glorifies Him and it pleases Him. And when we pray, what happens is that we're throwing fuel? And pouring and splashing it out? And God's work on it is like Him simply lighting a match before the whole thing bursts into flames. When we PRAY, we're laying out, we're laying down fuel so God can make the whole thing catch fire with one spark. And that's why if we're praying for someone, or not praying for someone as much as we should. we SHOULD do it. Everyday. Because they DO help. Its not just a "maybe y'know, it'd be nice" kinda thing. It has a tangible effect that God is just waiting to use :D



I have lots to work on in that aspect too. I need to remember to pray for people, for things. Its so easy to become apathetic you know? Whether its because "I don't care," or because "I can't do anything to help that," its the same thing. Except we CAN help that. Simply by prayer (:




Ahhhh my head hurts.


So. On a personal level, I'm growing in the prayer thing:D I remember at Fuel-up, I was scared to you know, pray out loud and stuff, and to pray out first? Like yeah. Yesterday, same setting, and being given the courage by God to just hit it out loud, and first, and all, was like yay(:

Plus I recognize the blessing the first step the first person takes that everybody is already thinking about doing, but not wanting to be the first can be. Whether its prayer or going to the front or whatever heh.


And I thank God for allowing us to be one of the more retarded ah well why not people that can give those blessings(:

Or something. Haha.


Sleeepy. ):




Today was more church. (: (: And everyone was there! Haha. Okay like most of my friends didn't know they were going to end up seeing me on stage inexplicably but yeah..

I for some reason am somewhat adverse to talking about myself. Idk. Partly because I vaguely want it to be a surprise. Vaguely because I don't want to come close to that thin line of attention-seeking, because..

Past accusations, I think, and actualy being like that in the past. Not that i'm saying telling people about your birthday or whatever is attention-seeking, its just something..I don't really want to think about much. Haha.Its just me(:




So yes testimony. Now I have a confession to make. I honestly didn't think I was as good up there as- OKAY GOSH. MIND. INCOHERENT. MUST SLEEP. CONTINUE AFTER WAKING UP ):

Mom is going to kill me for sleeping on sofa again. But I must! I don't want to wake up at 11 or something..


Okayfine it is my own fault that I'm so behind on schedule, but still :/


Methinks I can be a much much better son.

Okay brb snooze

Gaggh Screw-up

Lots of things on my mind.


1) GODDAMMIT I HATE CRUSHES


PRIS WHERE ARE YOU I NEED YOU TO SIT ME DOWN AND LOOK ME IN THE EYE AND MOTIVATE ME TO GET PAST THIS.



Gah. And no, i'm not crushing on Pris, that would just be weird..

Jeez.

But yeah. I hate crushes, mostly because they're so absolutely effffffffffing useless. Serious. Think about it. Has there ever been a time in your life where a crush has been something good? Ugh. Gah.


So i'm sitting here, trying not to think about someone that appeals to me for all the wrong reasons, and nothing really constructive is really coming of it apart from me yelling at myself going KEANNN. NO NO NO STOP DON'T GO THERE.

Or something. Yeah. 21 21 21. Exploring friendships first, theres the rest of my life to get attached to whoever God plans for me to get attached to. No. Bad Keann. Bad bad bad keann. You do NOT want to fall in love. Okay you do. But you don't want to screw ANYTHING up with anyone mmkay?


I can spend the whole night drilling this into myself and its all going to pot the next morning..

Sigh. But it will pass. It will :/ Crushes always do lol, even if they momentarily feel like they won't ever omg i must wait for you forever kind of crushes. So my currently grumpy deceived into thinking i need that special someone NOW mind feebly rationalises.

But it would be nice.

Okay no it wouldn't.

Okay it-

*bangs head against keyboard*


Okay no I didn't actually do that. Precious keyboard.


I suppose I should stop torturing you now and tell you that no, i'm not going to tell you who lol.


Disengage disengage disengage.

PRIS. NEED KINDRED SPIRIT. NOWWWW. ):



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That's point number one. Meh. Point number 2:


I feel quite screwed because its 4am and i've been up the whole night...doing nothing constructive. And I only blame myself. You'd think that sharing a testimony and crying my heart out to God, and getting blessed so many ways by so many wonderful people would have an effect. Or maybe exams in 3 days. But noooo.

I'm sorry Keenan. Yes I am an idiot. I'm sorrryyy Jo ):

And I'm sorry God, for letting You downnn. Again bah):



Ahh. So now I'm left with only 1 full day to study, and I've hardly touched MRM. And yes God will honour me when I honour him with it, and do my best, but the fact remains that I haven't done my best, not the best that I can do.


Yes, I am being harsh on myself. If I don't who will ahahaha.

Anyway the conclusion of that is that after these blog posts because I refuse to postpone - will drag it on forever and I will lose some really valuable things that can be shared with other people that NEED to come down here tonight, regarding service and birthdays and people that I love(: - , I will TRY to go through the most important chapters of MRM. The biggest 3. Ya. Hopefully I can get some sleep afters, because I think I need the alertness for Advert, which tmr is supposed to be the day for. According to schedule anyway.

According to schedule today was supposed to be MRM day...



And I have only myself to blame lol. I mean, the parts where God took over were good, but everything else...

Baggh. So that ends the negatives I think. I shall throw my tired mind into what I hope will come through correctly. in the next post (:

I cannot BELIEVE i did not post this sooner!

GUYS. RED CAMP STUDENT LEADER SIGNUP YO.



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Good day,

I would first like to wish you all the best in your examinations.

As to the purpose of this email, we are opening the online sign-up for those of you who are interested in helping out as Student Leaders of the RED Camp. The camp will be held from 19-21 Nov 08.

There will be a shortlist process whereby we will select suitable students to take on the role of Student Leaders. Students will be required to go for a games trial in the second week of Sep 08 to help us guage the suitability of each student.

If selected, you will be required to attend a complusory Student Leaders Camp tentatively to be held on 8-10 Oct 08. Subsequently, you may have to meet up with your other tribe members once a week to prepare for the RED Camp.

You will then need to accompany the RED Campers for the entire 3-days of the camp. We will inform your schools via excuse letters of your participation in the RED Camp.

CCA points will be offered for time spent prior to the camp, while an allowance will be given for the the 3-days of RED Camp.

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Please visit http://www.np.edu.sg/redcamp/SL.html to register your interest to join us as a Student Leader. Registration closes on 1 Sep 08. Thanks.


Best regards

Adrian Phuah | Manager | Corporate Communications Office
T: (65) 6460 8908 | F: (65) 6468 3207
Ngee Ann Polytechnic, 535 Clementi Road, Singapore 599489


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HURRY! THE LINK IS LIKE JUST ABOVE ME.



This is especially directed at the usual crazy bunch man, Adin, Yixin, Li, Bev, JOSHUA, etc!


We ex-student leaders for red camp got the email, and ambassadors HAVE to do this lol, so that means Pris, Brandon, are already in.


And its going to be super fun. Me and Keenan have already sent in our registration things.


Come on. Don't waste this man. Haha.



Okay. Back to workkk.

Sigh.

What is it about me that I only become productive after I pull an all-nighter for no apparent reason at all, and having a cup of double concentrated coffee?

Bagggh. Trying to organise everything. I started out so well at the start of the semester...


then i just started chucking things into every which where and now I have piles of.

Well, piles.


Anyway, my horrible resolve breaking led me to dota at about 4am, where I was fascinated by the machinations of playing Syllabear as well - a big fat bear.

I blame WoW for clearly feral druid influences <_<


No matter what game it was, I COULD NOT break out of the "Must buy life steal, then must buy life and armor, and basher, and someone else can dps, i'll tank and lock down"


<_<


It would have worked well too, if I had a healer in any of those games...


<_<


I AM DOOMED.




Anyhow: Gosh thank you God for Vanessa and Eunice and Mel and Genny just popping up randomly with all the notes I need. Now...

I was gonna go to school earlier to pray or something, but I think I need the time to organize what I have in my drawers.

I...was pondering if I should try to bless people today. People studying in the library. Instead of studying myself lol. I mean, i'd have less time?


Uhhhhh. I shall try. To hit at least 5 todayyy. Of random people. God, be with me! :D


Or something. Haha. Arrgh baack to work.

Eh.

I'm going to try and remember birthdays. Lol.

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15th Birthday. Sec..3?


Oh I remember this one. I was in the middle of that whole Anna misery thing, which started about March 11, and ended about November..22? Idk, someplace, Phase 1, anyway. Lol.

And we were the best of friends, or at least I thought so, but she never really had time for me anymore, and whatever role I used to fill had been taken over by her boyfriend. And only being a friend, I had no claim to her time, at least I thought so, and so I just suffered in silence. And every day it cut deeper and deeper.

She forgot my birthday, that year.


Hey. I was stupid once. Get over it. I have. Lol.


But there was this other girl who had remembered my birthday. June! It was after the Marion Raven concert which I snagged two tickets at some radio thing and went with her for. We were kinda close. But when we went out, I was hitting myself all the time for comparing her to Anna and how we used to function, and pretty much thinking i was a horrible bastard. So yeah. Lol. June gave me a cd, filled with some of her favourite songs, which most turned into my favourite songs for awhile. Emo songs. Very emo rock songs. But they got me through a very very bad period of time in my life. A time in my life where I would go to church(family church) camp in September, and suddenly sink into depression and stay upstairs during Service so I could cry my heart out, blasting that favourite song of mine into my ears.

That CD lasted me 2 years man. And I would literally listen to some of of the tracks and be overcome with emotion and start tearing, whenever, whereever. That's how shot my nerves were..

(Charmaine i'm not helping things am i *wince*)

Hey. No laughing. Lol. Anyway, I kinda ruined that friendship. June still hates me now, I think. :/

Edit: Wow. I found another note. From an amazing friend. Singling! Where have you gone! Haha i vaguely know you're in SIM, and modelling now, but gosh, look what I found:


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yo! merry xmas :) haha retarded ddd :|

hahas. eh next year got o levels hor must study!

ha. eh..wait or are yu in IP? :| ddd. :x

yups btw, thanks for being such a gr8 friend all these years

and standing up for me at times! eg the chanx thingy.

ya. haha. but hors sometimes tolerate awhile lah.

mothers are naggy haha. okay?

alrights, take care! trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding! :)


nothing i can boast in
my life is scarred with sin
my works are filthy rags
no merit can i bring

yet mercy filled Christ's heart
love took Him to the tree
its grace alone, which saves me
Christ's blood that sets me free :)



:DDDD Gosh. We were like 15. And "all these years" meant like 13-15 :s
Guess I wasn't THAT bad a person. Heh. You know, the two of us were seen as the "bad kids" of our level, in church? :s Now you tell me how ^that can be written by someone who's -

Nevermind. Haha. Good times(:
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16th birthday, sec 4 lol


I have very little idea about what happened this year, except that I had just started coming to Coos( !!! : D) about 3 weeks ago, so something good had to have happened :D


But I can't for the life of me remember what it was :/


I think Charlotte and Sophia were the only ones who cared about me, then, lol. And one of them is in Canada, and the other one...yeah hates me now. And this one I have absolutely no idea what happened. Big blowup out of nowhere. Jeez. Hands-off man. But :/


I remember Grace and Maria though. Both of them were huge in my life at the time, having been the ones who brought me to Coos and all :D


Hey. I never pretended I was an awesomely popular person in secondary school. I wasn't. I don't think I was well liked. Anything that has happened since Poly happened has been purely the grace of God. Aye. Haha. (:

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Oh gosh I remember being 14 and being sec 2 gosh.


Here's a note I found:

Dearest Qien (:/),

Knowing you has certainly made our lives more colourful.

Just like you never fail to get in trouble, you never fail to make a gloomy day bright! 2j will forever open her doors to their sunshine!

May you receive many hugs and kisses from THAT someone!

<3,
Huiyi; Maria; Tiffany; Grace. 15.8.04



Lol. Okay background information: 2J wasn't my class. 2K was my class. But I didn't like 2K very much, and thought people in 2J were so much cooler, so I hung out with them a lot (not something i'm very proud of). Yeah. And in their class, I was always running around getting in trouble for pulling tricks on people. Dumping cake in water bottles. Lizards, once-alive-now-dead ones, itching powder, whatever. And Huiyi Maria Tiff and Grace got me this..well I can't remember, but more prank stuff. Heh.

I think the gesture meant more to me than anything, since I wasn't part of their class, and I think secretly was always very scared that I didn't have acceptance.


Yeah well! So that was Sec 2! And no, i'm not telling you who the girl was. I can't remember anyway. Honest.


OH I DO REMEMBER. DAMN. BUT STILL NOT TELLING. HAHA.


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If you haven't noticed by now, notes make the greatest impressions on me. I have this messy drawer with scraps of paper inside, and when I find them I laugh so hard, and smile so much, because yeah haha. Ah well. Like for instance, I have Charmaine's and Lala's notes from Fuel-up there. And notes from Prisca, my angel, etc. And Shereen's valentine's day thing..


Eh. Okay. I think I am boring you. I will retreat. Ahahaha. K. Later.

BAAAAGH

Okay. Lets be honest here. I think my last post was mostly full of crap loololoolool. Trying to do some weird obligaatory birthday post which seems to be rather forced, so screw it lol.


*Muses*


I think, in the end, 18....I don't think I ever saw myself here at this point in any point in my life. Not in Kindergarten when i wanted to become a fireman, like every other boy. Not in Primary School, when I took for a given that I was going to go to ACJC. Not in Secondary school, when I was all angsty and heavily emotional, and with a chip on my shoulder thinking I was the best thing to happen to the future of Singapore radio.

Not here, crazily in love with God, mad about dance, actually playing WoW, and laying down a commitment to not look into the whole BGR thing till 21. Trying to hold everything together, trying to let everything go, so I can just be where I want to be, which is in church every single day.


Gaggh final exams. And then other random PPP and I think Challengers Camp, and other things. I hear there's crusade camp lol. Life's not over by a long shot..



But if the past few years have anything to show, its just that I don't know anything at all. Heh.

It scares me that last year, at this time, two idiots were off at Cold Rock on their first day of the job, and Josh came down to give me two books and a wristband thingy for my birthday..


Hahahahah. We've come a long way, all of us. Changing, fighting, laughing, messing about, us crazy few. Haha.


I wonder where we'll be 4 years down the road, after NS takes us?

Lol. alright, back to real life time. Later. Haha.

Ooo

It occurs to me that it is 10 minutes before I'm 18.
Jeez, that's old.

Anyway i figure i'll probably stop playing pokemon, and come here to do some vague musing about the past years of my life lol.



I mean, 18's a special age right. Or so our culture has made it out to be. Coming of age, being an adult, all that jazz.


Except I'm not particularly fascinated with becoming an adult. Lol.



:blink:

I've always felt younger than my age anyway lol, just look at the people I hang out with the most, heh.


Baaaggh.


And the perks that come with being this age, being of-age to club, drink, whatever -


Dude, like even when we're 16/17, people who want to drink, manage to get stuff to drink. Get real, lol. Not that alcohol has particularly fascinated me either. Its...okay, I can hold my own with it, but its more of a social thing for me than anything. A can of beer effing costs triple a can of soft drink kthanks, i'll stick with the coke. Let alone the heavier stuff..


Clubbing? I think we've established that I'd much rather be someplace else every Friday and Saturday night, which is with God in church. Plus, I don't need to prove that I'm not afraid to dance or anything :rolls eyes:


HAHA.


Save it for the stage, man(:

3 minutes to 18. O.o




Looking back on my life...I don't think I've been the best person I could have been. Crazy screw-ups, here and there, everywhere, home, parents, school, etc.

And I really could have been so much more aware when I was younger, haha. Like thinking dance and singing were for girls [sheepish]




One minute till 18. :blink:


Bev is skyping me. Maybe I should run and hide. Lol. Or not. Haha. Love you too Bev, you're awesome(:



AND thank you all you people who have been asking me weird stuff like whats my favourite colour, where am i going to be on Friday, and whether I'm going to church, on Friday, and whatnot.


Haha. Josh, Keenan, Pris, Char, Charr, Hannah, Adin, Mark, Gerald, Suren, Maria, Grace, Sheereen, seniors, everyone that has seen me through the past years and kept me sane, thank you, and i love you. Don't die on me or something kay(:



And here pops in Charmaine with the birthday greeting. :D


Loves(:





Alright.

Need blessing/prayer? Ask me :] says: I'll give you two huge hugs on Saturday :] 12:05 AM

KEANN~ YAY MY NOTES PROBLEMS ARE SOLVED THANK YOU GOD : DDD says: now can we go back to pretending im seventeen 12:05 AM
Need blessing/prayer? Ask me :] says: HAHA! No problem

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THAT'S SETTLED THEN. HAHA.


._.


Bah. Haha. Arrrrgh I really have to get some studying going. I'll set a target to start at 2. :x



HEY, JUST BECAUSE I'M AN HOUR OLDER DOESN'T MEAN I'M ANY SMARTER.



:p



Hey God(: Its been what, 2 years since you opened my eyes to you, and set me on the right course? And I'm sorry that I haven't always been the person you've wanted me to be, and I haven't always listened, and I haven't always loved, and I've often ignored you and your breaking heart. But I want to promise you that I'm trying, and that someday I will get there, to where you want me to be, and I promise that so hard because that's what I want. You're who I want, and where I want to be. And I will go to the ends of the earth to find you, and you're the biggest thing that matters to me. Soon Lord. But there are all these things in the way, fears, flaws, past commitments, insecurities, bad relationships, and all Lord. And I ask this year, I ask for strength to jump past all of that, to walk WITH you, even thought I don't know very much at all. And maybe exactly because I don't know very much at all. Words cannot begin to express how grateful and how in love and in awe of you I am, Lord. Dad. Will you give me wisdom and revelation, the kind you gave Solomon and Daniel, this year? Don't ever let me go Lord. And thank you for loving me(: :D


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Oh enough melodrama already. This day isn't about me, its about the day Japan got owned by the British and left Singapore!


I'm entirely serious, it was today.


*seriousface*




HAHA WHATEVER. I HAVE RUN OUT OF INTELLIGENT THINGS TO SAY. LATER.

HAHA WTF

High School Musical 3: Senior Year will be the third installment in Disney's popular High School Musical franchise. It is scheduled for a theatrical release on October 24, 2008. Kenny Ortega returns as director and choreographer and so do all six primary actors.^[2][3]

The first single from the soundtrack, "Now or Never", debuted on Radio Disney on July 11, 2008.^[5] The "Now or Never" music video, debuted on Disney Channel on July 30, 2008. The second single from the soundtrack, I Want It All, will debut on Radio Disney on August 15, 2008.^[6]

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HAHA WTF. HOW DID I MISS THIS.

Today is shaping up to be a hilariously funny day. lol/

MISSION NUMBER 1

BODY ROLL GO


._.



And yeah, well, study. Lol.

I am going to hell

I am turning into one of those birthday wishlist people. Aaaaaaa.

- I would really like speakers. For dance. Bass. I like bass. Bass is awesome :D

- Caps. Don't laugh <_<

- Shoeessss

- I'd like a hoodie :D

- I'dz likez sweatshirtz

- A bike. Okay near impossible, but hey just saying ._.

- Gloves! Like the no fingers kind.

- If you buy a shirt, i'll wear it. S'long as its big, and not emo :D

- A mat. You know, one of those big blue gym mat things. So I can practice flips without killing myself. My bed just doesn't cut it..

- An iPod. Having speakers, without an iPod, is just sad D=

- A band to keep my glasses attached to my face when attempting to dance or run would be nice. Lol.

-Heck, buy me a haircut, and i'll be happy. :D

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There. I did it. Lol. Er. But you don't have to get me anything! Hahaaha. Me and God and my friends and I'm good to go, really(:

Now I'm going to pretend its my 17th birthday coming up. Yeah.

Rah.

Blah

So I will stop pretending my birthday isn't this friday, just so I can post something interesting.


ANYWAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARYL, EVEN THOUGH I DON'T THINK YOU EVEN KNOW I HAVE A BLOG :D




Anyhow, I was just pondering that I would like my birthday to be a tour. Like I'd go visit my primary school, and the hawker centre with the amazing curry chicken and the <3333 pineapple juice, and then actually go step into my secondary school. Yes. For real. My secondary school. What. Its as good a day as any.


But then again, wisdom dictates that I stay at home to study. I musstttt. I already didn't study all of today, and two very big papers, so yah. The tour can wait till next year or something. Plus, I want a good haircut before I go lol.

Sides, I have church that night for some reason, so I think that's exactly where I want to spend my birthday. With God :D

Anyhow. Entertainment for you people today takes the form of our resident incorrigible dancer/bimbo/KI freak/i love her so much :rolls eyes:/ Charmaine, who's apparently too good to talk to me:

KEANN~ right okay today i resolve everytime i want to play a com game i will substitute it with youtube dance vids says:
so besides that, how has life been?




[Really long silence of no reply over here]




09:37 PM
KEANN~ right okay today i resolve everytime i want to play a com game i will substitute it with youtube dance vids says:
if i were to talk about cooking, i'm sure you'd reply...


09:39 PM
Need blessing/prayer? Ask me :] says:
-.-
Ive to do this report


09:39 PM
KEANN~ right okay today i resolve everytime i want to play a com game i will substitute it with youtube dance vids says:
I Knew It


09:39 PM
Need blessing/prayer? Ask me :] says:
TTYL


09:39 PM
KEANN~ right okay today i resolve everytime i want to play a com game i will substitute it with youtube dance vids says:
BUT I HAVE THIS CAKE
AND I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD PUT MORE EGG IN IT
WILL IT MESS WITH THE SUGAR


09:41 PM
Need blessing/prayer? Ask me :] says:
Youre baking?


09:41 PM
KEANN~ right okay today i resolve everytime i want to play a com game i will substitute it with youtube dance vids says:
*stares*
Charmaine
You're not helping yourself here
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Lol. Seriously. I don't know why we're such good friends. Haahahha. Okay I'm shutting up :D


Laterrr

Actually no

Its more like :

I love people who force me to be intelligent, without making it seem like its going to be hard work.




Lol.

Huh

I think the entire last post can be summarised as such:

I love people who force me to be intelligent.



:D

Vague distress

So I really should have used this day productively.

I won't go into sordid details, but its been reaaaaaallllyy not at all. :s


Well besides this morning anyway, where I woke up and was compelled to post like this 5000+ word long comment on Hannah's blog regarding all the Bible content that I was going through yesterday night on a topic she raised.

And yes I know its 5000 because apparently the comment post limit is 2000 and it banhammered me.

Blah. But it was a good morning, up till the point I opened Wc3...

Actually it was still okay when I did. Problem began when I never really closed it.

I think, things like these, are the things that show me I am far from a completed work, or any kind of good Christian at all. :s And I hope that these memories and points do stay with me, so I never get any kind of swelled head when I have moved somewhat significantly in the direction of a good Christian.

I just get deceived so often. Do I want to spend the whole day doing com games? No. Do I want to spend more time on God? Yes. But that's now, and two 10 hours ago my motivations just got distracted away. Gaaaa.

Which is why I need to come around and get my head straightened on the right wayyy.

And right now, the thing doing that is Hannah and her blog. Haha.

It scares me that she is like what 2 years younger. What have I been doing with my life man. Haha.


See Hannah, this is what I was referring to when I vaguely mentioned that "it goes both ways" haha. What I think I NEED at this given point, is to stay mature, not have momentary fits of it, and to like LOOK at God, not stay on the outskirts skirting the boundary, cause once I do look at Him, y'know, all the right answers and things just fall into place and start working.


Otherwise, I'm mostly an idiot. The one who tries to lead people into national day songs at the hawker after church because he knows full well everyone is horrified at the notion.


Do I ever want to give up the craziness though? Not really no I really don't and not at all :s


What I DO want to give up though, is the unreliability. And I won't promise it, because if i go back on it it all goes to hell, but i AM working on it. Somewhat.

Er.

Oh mannnn. Gotta studyy. I am banhammering myself from Warcraft. And Pokemon. And yes WoW. Keenan please keep me accountable when you see this lol.

Will. Stay. Focused. On. God.

I think the best way to do that now is to stop talking about it, and start praying about it..


Gogogoogogo.

I APPARENTLY NOW HAVE A GIRLFRIEND

I present to you the proof:




: O


Alright dinners.

BLOG CONTEST!!

Obligatory National Day post:

So I sat into my school's NDP celebration thing. Now unlike JC/secondary school, ours is not compulsory, the convention centre wouldn't fit that many people in it anyway.

But we still know how to throw a damn good party!

Here are some of the pictures from the event, mostly towards the finale, there are more pictures if you have time on your hands, just click on -->THIS<-- The link above goes to Priscilla's Mutiply Album page, cause it was her camera, and thank you so much for going through them for me girl (:

So National Day:







Yes, we have a huge remote controlled blimp. I know right. : D





So this is the finale already, everyone who performed before is up on stage especially including Detention, that underground dance group from nowhere who somehow found themselves on the big stage :D

Hee. Josh you were awesome, and everyone else there, Pris, Adin, Li, Yixin, Rachel, Mel, everyone else who I just met but don't know cause I had to drop out for awhile, you rocked the house down aye. And I'm definitely coming back, just let me clear these goddamned final assignments.


NOTE: To all those who keep asking me if I was on stage, no I wasn't. I was in the crowd covering the event for newswriting like everyone else. I would like to be, but hey. Give these guys their due. I had nothing to do with their a-a-amazing performance :D


And then the world EPXLODESXSES [Gigantic Grin]










See, this is why you should sit into rehearsals people. The moment Detention ended their act, I ran the heck up to get the spot for the photo. I didn't see much of the pyrotechnics myself though, too busy frantically clicking away trying to spam photos without looking. I never said i was a good photographer..




So. The pyrotechnics end, and I'm sitting there still in kneeling position on top of crowd wondering if I got what I wanted, and suddenly the crowd turns around and starts cheering at Something Big Right Behind Me. I turn around and find myself staring in the face of a huge confetti cannon..

*runs*








The pictures do no real justice to what happened to me, really. :/ I sat there buried in falling red and white snow for like 5 whole minutes with the cannon to my back..



So much for sitting in rehearsals..



The blimp takes its leave..




And then i stop being a reporter and start being the general big occasion crazy monkey dude all over again :D I get dragged on stage sometime at this point.



: Felix Tan, Radio Lecturer for us and one of the MCees of the night. Making stupid jokes about the smoke machine and the haze from Beijing..



And that's Adin. Haha. Wonderful guy. Amazing dancer, spontaneous crazy dude. Loves God, and is still single.

HAHA.




Annnnd that's some of Detention. Haha.



Yeah(: What I would give to be a part of that photo, legitimately. Heh. Okay. Soon. SOON. IM AH COMING BACK CAUSE I NEED TO GET BACK INTO DANCE SO BAD.

Plus I have all that catch-up to do ._.


If you want to see a few more photos, click -->HERE<-- , once again, its Priscilla's Multiply Album thingy :D

Gosh, now i have to write a proper story. I hope I don't screw it up..


Oh yeah I almost forgot. Here's the blog of the guy who started it all, creator, choreographer, music mixer, teacher, amazing friend, inspiration to us all, Josh Simon. Go check it out ;D

Here's a quote:

"ANd OMG ! WE're going on stage in THREE HOURS!!
After all these practices, rehearsals, new people, new friends, new dance moves!
WE're UP ON STAGE!
Im smiling coz... about 3-4 months ago, I was sitting at the convention Centre with Keann, sneaking in to watch NRA"s Fantasia. A little suggestion was made by the two of us, to start a dance group. One of my dreams at that moment, was to perform on the convention centre stage... after 3-4 months... we're gonna be on it, taking over it, in 3 hours."

Heh. Go see. And here's a final shoutout to everyone in Detention that worked so hard, laughed so hard, and came together to choreo various parts of the whole thing, cause it was definitely a huge group effort. :D See you guys soon aye (:


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SO ANYWAY, BLOG CONTEST.




Quoting my good friend Matt:

Attention friends and everyone else reading this who has a blog!

I NEED YOUR HELP!

See there's this little contest going on where the winner gets to bring 50 friends along for a private movie screening of that new animation movie Wall-E. To increase the chances of winning, i'll need your participation and contribution..

What you basically have to do is to post an entry on YOUR blog recounting the craziest thing you've ever done for love, signing off with "Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008" THEN linking to my blog (matthew-zachary.blogspot.com) as the originator blog.


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I don't care much for the movie, but hey! Movie theatre, 50 of us kids taking over, PILLOWFIGHT, I'm in :DD


So here's my contribution to Matt:

"The craziest thing i've done for love.. planning and saving up for her birthday 5 months in advance, so i could buy her a huge ice-cream cake and a gigantic tweety bird soft toy, her favourite, for her 16th birthday in school. And getting her friends to give her the cake and take the credit, and not being at the cake-cutting, because she would have just felt weird about it, and have been a ruined birthday. I watched from the corner of the canteen."

Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008

Originator blog: http://matthew-zachary.blogspot.com

Yeah well. Hey. We were all stupid, once. So anyone who reads this, just type that out and link matthew-zachary etc at the bottom the way I did, okay? It won't take no time at all(:

Lol. Okay newswriting. Happy National Day! CHURCHTIME NOW.

Boo

I would like a bike.


(cough)

Yes Keann

"Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; He's the one who will keep you on track. Don't assume that you know it all (:"




Hear that Keann. Haha. You're going to post this here so you see it again and again mmkay.


Lots of work to do tonigghttt.


/starts proofreading

I shall now attempt to fry a banana

AND HERE ARE THE RESULTS:



:/ HEY IT STILL TASTES GOOD OKAY. AND ITS LIKE THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE MAKING ANY SORT OF BATTER. IDK.

Anyway despite that, I was still feeling quite happy about myself until I went to google a picture of fried bananas:



Sigh. WELL OKAY THEN YOU TEACH ME HOW TO COOK. BAH ):


Oh my sister attempted to make one:




And then we chucked a whole lot more flour into the batter and tried another:





I think the last one needed more sugar..if im going to throw that much batter on it i need to balance out the sugar lol.


I still have two more bananas in the bag, but I'm tired. Lol. Well. Was fun. I wonder if fried oranges are any good? :s


Bleh. HAHA OKAY NIGHT

Quiet 2

I think I know where God wants to use me. Heh. Can you guess XD

Lets just write about you, oh God(:

SO I’m here now listening to We Fall Down by Chris Tomlin, I think its been 10 minutes since I finished the last thing I was writing just below, lol. Ah well. But hey(:

I think its going to be a huge transgression if I don’t try to capture every miniscule moment of what I’m going through now, just sitting here looking at God(:

We fall down,
We lay our crowns,
At the feet of Jesus

The greatness of
Your mercy and love
At the feet of Jesus

We cry holy, holy, holy
We cry holy, holy, holy,
We cry holy, holy, holy,
Is the Lamb(:

We fall down,
We lay our crowns,
At the feet of Jesus

The greatness of
Your mercy and love
At the feet of Jesus

We cry holy, holy, holy
We cry holy, holy, holy,
We cry holy, holy, holy,
Is the Lamb(:

*cue saxophone solo *


Heh. I switched to this song cause my ears were getting a bit tired, and even Hillsong songs were getting a bit jarring to my ears. Even Hosanna haha. I don’t know whyyy, I don’t know much about music, if someone could tag me about this it would be cool. Haha.

I don’t want this to end. I know, that generally once I head home, I’ll get distracted by stuff, the Internet, trying to navigate past parents, siblings, etc. Yeah. Yes, I could pray about it Lord, for You to give me the strength and focus to do this at home too, but hey. Haha. I’m rather afraid that I’ll pray about it and promise God that I’ll do it, and then I don’t do it.

See, one of my greatest flaws is that I say so much, promise so much, have people see so much great potential and believe in me, and then I don’t do it, and let them all down.

Which is why I implore you to not take this blog as a gauge of the person I am. A couple of people occasionally come and tell me “Oh you’re so holy”, but I’m not, honest. I’m nowhere near people who don’t talk as much, don’t blog as much, but do so much more. Melodi, Chonghao, Yisin, Hannah, Rachel, Charlene, etc. People who serve, people who actually do things, and if you guys are reading this blog right now, I want you to know that you’re a great inspiration to me, and a great blessing from God to the people around you. Your parents, your friends, your siblings, and the people you serve. And God (:

I do want to get there, eventually, but I keep getting held back by all these weaknesses of mine. Like for example, turning up for cell what 2 hours late? With no good reason? Letting Lala down? So yeah. I have a long way to go, Lord.

Oh I know. You’re here with me. And I can’t do this on my own strength, and it’s a partnership with You. But I think lately, I’ve been saying too much of that and then not actually doing anything. So yeah. I don’t want to make any more promises than the ones I’ve already made, Lord. I want to fulfil the ones I’ve already made to You, and the people around me.

Which is why I didn’t go for altar call yesterday. Haha. See, Pastor Jen called for us who needed to actually DO something about the things God had been calling us to do, or to let go of sins and distractions keeping us back, to come to the front in a representation of what we’re promising God that we’re going to do.

Altar call is generally something kinda hard to do. To step out in front of 300 plus people who know you, in response to a specific problem the pastor has laid out as told to her by God, or a call by God etc, takes a certain amount of faith and boldness that God is going to protect you as you go out, and not let any judgement or whatever takes place.

Except for me it isn’t that hard. The issue of “omgosh going up to front how I’m shy” has never been much of an issue for me, and it usually isn’t a problem for me to throw everything to God, and step out in faith. Y’know? And the emotional charge-up, etc.

For me, the problem is that after the altar call, and after the leader praying for me, is me just letting it lie, and then letting it die.

So yesterday, my personal altar call, my personal step of boldness and faith in God, was to not go up. A representation of how I’m going to try and stop promising and promising and promising, but get down and do things first, before talking about them.

Yeah. Or something. Haha. So the pray+bless campaign! Gosh! Monday! How are we going to do this, Ngee Ann people!? :s

Howwww. Haha. But damn. I’m not going to let this one die. God don’t let me let this one dieee.
Like the 30 sec kneel-down and pray thing I was gonna start in school. It kinda failed really badly. I did it like twice I think on the first day, and it was great, and you could really feel God there, but then..I just let it die. ><

Bah :/

WELL GOD LETS MAKE THIS ONE WORK. HAHA. OKAY(:

Yup, once Bev gets here, I’m going to bless her. Actually maybe I could go around the tables at Starbucks now, and bless random people, but I think I might get kicked out, and I’m like kinda shy so –

>.<

YES, KEANN HAS SHY MOMENTS. OKAY. I’M A PERSON JUST LIKE ANYONE ELSE.

Except maybe Hannah and Rachel. XD

HAHA :D

You two were awesome up there yesterday yo. Don’t ever lose that spark of love and trust and faith in God, kay? You’re a huge inspiration to the rest of us, alright :D

See you guys soon at Day of Power or something. :D

Guess I better get down to editing that testimonial..

Gosh I feel super guilty sitting here hogging the 4-set sofa all by myself, its exactly what I hate about others when I come into Starbucks looking for a place to sit with friends >.<

Ahhhh Bev come soon. Haha :/

Gaggh. So much to do today.

Quiet

Hmmm. So I’m sitting alone in Starbucks now, with no phone and no Internet cuz I don’t have my WirelessSG password. Haha. But I have my com! And my headphones! And my bible and my notebook!

:D

So for the past hour I’ve just been focusing on God. Heh. No real great focus to it. No great revelations. But it’s a good time and I’m enjoying myself just sitting and soaking in God’s presence (:

Cause Lord, like Sherry said, I need to hunger for You more(:

So. Guys. My phone is nuked. I’m quitting WoW. And now my Internet’s gone, and I’m stuck here alone cause my friend is a little late.

And most would see this as “omg why shit your life sucks ahahaha”.

But can you see what an amazing blessing this is, people? I would get so distracted at home. The bed, the food, the tv, etc. But here and now I’m forced to go to God cause there’re no other distractions here, and I thank You God for this time. Heh.

He works in amazing ways(: Hey, I’ve known for awhile now that I need to spend more time with Him kay, I mean, I haven’t been doing QT for quite awhile now, cuz I wake up and I’m distracted by WoW and other things. And I missed cell yesterday cause I got caught up by WoW. Even though at the same point I wish I wasn’t playing WoW.

And I think that’s what a lot of us go through for a lot of things in our life. But when I actually manage to get away, and I come to church and service, there is a sense of belonging and rightness that cannot be replaced and compared to anything else. WoW is fun, sure. So are the other things that we do. But when I come to God, its all that and more, and theres a sense of rightness flowing through all of me, and I know this is exactly where I want to, and need to be(:

Yesterday during worship was simple, but so profound for me because it was so simple. The whole time, the words “Right here, right now, this is where I want to be Lord” were flowing through my head, and I had this irrevocable sense of peace. Not just peace from worshipping God, or peace from distractions in life. It was all that, plus the peace of knowing that this is my place in the life God wants me to be(:


And I never want to go away Lord, even though sometimes I think to the contrary. Like what a lot of us do. We get deceived, we get distracted. We get told that this or that is more fun, or more important, but somehow when we manage to come back or be dragged back, You show us that nothing really compares(:

And I don’t regret at all being dragged out to Starbucks today Lord, if only to write this, and to spend the past hour looking at nothing but You. :D

I should do this more often. Haha. Every Sunday at Starbucks mebbe? No real need to ask God for some amazing revelation or amazing solution to some problem or other. As in, those are great too I think, but sometimes I think God wants to let us bask in His Glory just for the simple sake of basking in it(:

There doesn’t always have to be a complicated Greater Purpose to it yo. Heh.


Love you too God, and thank you for this time(:

Oooh

SO i was going through my photos today:




Watchout imma keelchu



Heh.



What iz going onz? :s



Don't ask.



(: