Simply Unspectacular

I don't like you I don't like you I don't like you I don't like you.



There I've said it, now I just have to believe it.


Cause frankly I don't want to anymore. Its just too much trouble. Its not worth it Lord. I'm weak, I'm scarred and I'm wounded, I'm hurting Lord and all I want is someone to show me the magic, not confuse me all over again.



When is it my turn to fall into love that doesn't hurt, doesn't confuse, doesn't induce self-doubt and actually feels good?






Cause I don't want to be falling into cycles like this my whole life. I want it to be easy for once.





































I found a new favourite-dates spot place today:










Hmmmm :/




I don't know why I'm feeling like this. By all accounts to any outsider I should have had a really good day. Packing ang baos with the NPcell, hitting service-which I live for- with Josh David Abby and Sharyl after wanting to get them to visit for ages, saying hi to everyone who I love seeing and heading to Vivo afters.



But I wasn't having a good time


I can't remember when I've actually wanted to go home so bad, I ran home down that usual 15-minute walk from the bus stop in my jeans and thick sweatshirt just to blog these thoughts that I'd been nursing the past 3 hours.



Oh Lord):
I feel lonely tonight, won't somebody drop by the bench with the guy in the pink sweatshirt and the black beret nursing his bacardi to say hello.




In hindsight, I know exactly who I want to drop by

HILARIOUS CONVO WITH NAIVE JC GIRL

[00:32] stupid bitch amanda: SHE KISSED MY BOYFRIEND


o.O

Oo-er. This is serious. Dear me. She looks like she could use someone to talk to. But first a matter of importance must be settled.

[00:33] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: WAIT WHAT
[00:33] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: firstly
[00:33] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND



WAIT WHAT. HOW DID I NOT KNOW THIS BEFOREHAND. I KNOW EVERYTHING




[00:33] stupid bitch amanda: YEA
[00:33] stupid bitch amanda: AND SHE KISSED HIM


We get the general idea.



[00:33] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: UH
[00:33] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: SHOCK
[00:33] stupid bitch amanda: AND I HAVENY
[00:34] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: SINCE WHEN HAVE YOU HAD A BOYFRIEND
[00:34] stupid bitch amanda: SINCE ALWAYS
[00:35] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: NO SERIOUSLY NOW
[00:35] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: SINCE WHEN


SINCE WHEN





[00:35] stupid bitch amanda: end of sec4




Now we know. But er.




[00:36] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: uh
[00:36] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: HOW ARE WE SUPPOSED TO BE BONDED AS A CELL IF WE DON'T KNOW THINGS LIKE THIS





HOW. Okay so now you know this mysterious person is from my cell. Cough.




[00:36] stupid bitch amanda: belle joy knows



And she knows "belle joy"



[00:36] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: tomorrow, you have to er
[00:36] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: come out in the open
[00:36] stupid bitch amanda: she thinks hes hot
[00:36] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: and then tell them some girl is kissing him
[00:37] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: and ask for prayer
[00:37] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: [:





My advice, as always, is wise and will surpass the end of the age (:




[00:37] stupid bitch amanda: you never see him before meh
[00:37] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: *stares*
[00:37] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: OKAY SECOND QUESTION


SECOND QUESTION



[00:37] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: IF ITS BEEN LIKE TWO YEARS ALR
[00:37] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: HOW COME YOU STILL HAVEN'T KISSED YET




I quote: "end of sec4" AND YEAH. NO WONDER-

[00:38] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: no wonder he's kissing random girls -_-




Er. YEAH.



[00:38] stupid bitch amanda: why not
[00:38] stupid bitch amanda: cos like we kinda seperated for a year
[00:38] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: er
[00:38] stupid bitch amanda: then we got back together recently
[00:39] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: this is me bringing guythink to the table


*Guythink comes to the table*



[00:39] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: guys
[00:39] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: like kissing
[00:39] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: end of story



Yup.

[00:39] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: no
[00:39] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: guys
[00:39] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: like kissing
[00:39] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: a lot





A lot.


[00:39] stupid bitch amanda: well thats not my fault
[00:39] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: i mean we're scared of the first kiss just like anyone else
[00:39] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: but after that...
[00:40] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: *hell breaks loose*




I refuse to comment on whether this has been derived from personal experience or otherwise.




[00:40] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: <_<
[00:40] stupid bitch amanda: >.<
[00:40] stupid bitch amanda: youre so weird


Wait what. For liking kissing now?




[00:40] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: no
[00:40] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: im a healthy
[00:40] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: living breathing
[00:40] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: male person




Just so in case anyone is still in doubt




[00:40] stupid bitch amanda: ok
[00:41] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: and if you think i'm weird this puts all the guys you hang around with in suspicion
[00:41] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: <_0
[00:41] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: O.o





The poor girl. She had no idea. And the poor guys. *shudder*



[00:41] stupid bitch amanda: they are all straight thankew



Sounds plausible enough. But wait! Social psychology teaches:



[00:42] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: sexual orientation and masculinity can be two very different things
[00:42] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: one is not always related to another
[00:42] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: or the lack of another



Ergo.




[00:42] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: and i wasn't saying anything about their sexual orientation
[00:42] Keann~ and this time I refuse to be mastered by my emotions or confused by my pride : D: :/





:/





*Wears scrunched-up-in-incredulity face for the rest of the night*













I was so gonna blog about other stuff people, but this supercedes everything else thankyew we only have a limited amount of frontpage cover on this blog O.o




I WONDER WHO'S THE GIRL HUH HUH. (HINT THERE IS A CLUE IN THE TITLE OF THIS ENTRY ARE YOU SMART ENOUGH TO SEE IT)


[:

Le sigh

The things I do for the people I'm crazy over.


Oh Lord give me wisdom and restraint regarding this matter and allow myself to conduct myself with dignity(:

:roll eyes:


I feel like being secretive today cuz I can.



The angbao money I got today amounts to less than my weekly allowance ):

Oooh

Well hello.

Yesterday was a pretty fun day all things considered, and I know I had a couple of interesting insights that I was too lazy to blog about but first I have t remember them lol.

Hmm. Declined going out with josh and the rest, buggered off to paya lebar let me say I love going out with the family cause of all the free food and general free everything we had Macdonalds which I haven't had in too long :D

Then er reunion dinner. Cousins are hilarious. The kids anyway. Boisterous little fellas. All guys too. Life should be fun when they all start growing up. Lucky people. Lol. Hit some random aunt's house for the kids i meant the kids adults and everyone except me to play the Wii, I just don't have a thing for boxing and jumping around the tv screen. Okay maybe I do but not in front of my family and extended family kthanks. I'm a very very reserved person around my family. Its true. :o


Still, it was somewhat pleasant, the book I pre-empted and got before the library closed for the next 4 days helped, and probably will help through boring boring visitations :D


The rest of the night was really fun though, Charr you and mel were honestly the last thing on my mind walking back home and I so did not expect that random call.

But I liked it[: Really. It makes a nice change to me always randomly calling people out to do crazy things on an impulse, I feel loved (:


NOW YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO PEOPLE. I MEAN. EITHER THAT OR BUY ME CAPS.




So somehow me mel charmaine natty whatever-charr's-sister's-name-is and other random cousins hung out at the playground and messed around with sparklers for a bit where i nearly sat fire to [insert charr's sister's name] hair but uh yeah bleh. Chilling on the bench in the night air was cool though. Me like random banter and just watching people and the trust and all round good feeling forged in those moments, lack of purpose just sitting there cause we can sharing a moment thingies are one of my favourite activities really. Except the rest didn't quite share my sentiments and dragged themselves back upstairs D=



Seriously, my idea of a fun date is just about that. I like silences and I like sitting around just chilling and sharing stuff and staying there till we fall asleep bottle of bacardi in hand till the morning comes and the magic disappears[:

Gotta take a break from the crazy stuff that happens all the time right. Doh.



You guys need to come over and find reasons to visit your grandmas more often(:





Purest of Pain - Son By Four


I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice

I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know

that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking


Baby, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe


the air that I breathe
Living without you, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.



They don't make songs like that anymore. Take this one for instance.


Girl On TV - LFO

Met her at a gala affair
She wore a green dress and everybody was there
Felt outta place as she looked into my eyes
Shook her hand around 9 pm and now
Im never gonna be the same again
Never have to be on a movie screen
To be the leading lady in all my dreams
Shoobie-do-wop and scooby snacks
Met a fly girl and I cant relax
The only problem is shes a movie star, oh


Ma-gic[:



Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
Girl you leave me breathless
But it's okay 'cause
You are my survival
Now hear me say

I can't imagine life
Without your love
Even forever don't seem
Like long enough

Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again

Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
(Drowning - Backstreetboys)

Seriously, I don't understand some of the flak that boybands get. Bad lyrics, crappy music? Uh?
:s You honestly would have thought the above was a good song until you found out it was a backstreet boys right then you all ugh-ee-gayboybands-sappysongs- right. Get off the hatewagon already people seriously now grow up. Lol. Nothing wrong with listening to what I call heart music. Aye.




Piano intros and wounded melancholy find a place in my heart somehow(:


NONO I'M NOT EMO I JUST THINK A LOT. HAHA.


Okay yup. Gotza go shower, people are coming over today to give me money this is a nice change :D

I forgot t say

Lol in all that happened yesterday I forgot to talk about this thing that happened that really should have stuck in my head but the fact that it didn't shows how much I healed alr and that's kinda cool [:


I saw both the girls that have had the greatest emotional impact in my life ever within 5 minutes of each other yesterday O.o

Which was freaky. Oo-er.

Erm. g i'm not saying you didn't mean anything to me oh no you meant boatloads to me but these 2 really liked had effects on my psych and personality that still can be seen today so :x



So anyway I saw Anna yesterday. Or at least I thought I did. Walking out of cine and i'm pretty sure that was you sitting there in your acjc uniform gorging on some random piece of meat that occupied all your attention and had your head turned away from me but I'd recognize that hair anywhere. I didn't have time to confirm glances but I was still pretty shocked cuz we were talking about you and some random philosophy I have in my life regarding girls cause of you not 2 seconds ago :blink: Uh.

So that was freaky, and then we were at the traffic light opposite Heereen and I saw you O.o
Alison. Hello first girl I ever fell in love with when I transferred to Fairfield Primary in P3 February, looked across the length of the classroom at you and you smiled at me and I decided you were the first person I ever liked. The stupid things I did or refused to do unless they were done for you I still remember but I don't care to mention lol, and the fights I had with Glenn for you, and even back then you were a tracker, a swimmer and a super smart student especially in Chinese of all things O.o The presents I got for you on CNY and on your birthday which is 12th September which I still remember, and the 3 whole years I was madly in love with you and only you and I made no secret of it and I still get teased about it when people remember. The dog I got after PSLE which I named after you but didn't tell you because I was afraid you'd freak out. The funny chess set you got for my birthday in return which I treasured and never opened till Sec 4 when I broke and I had no more chess sets and we needed something to do in class and we promptly lost the pieces and tore the paper. Yours was the first phone number I ever memorized, hand and house phone(: The teddy bear I bought for Valentines Day in Sec 1 and gave it to you through a girl in church that went to your school Nanyang Girls High which subjected me to teasing of no end. And I think we actually might have gotten together cause of all the long phone conversations we had when we were in Sec 1 except I was a messed up person and I fell in love with a girl in church I promptly forgot all about you. Seeing in when I was in Sec 3 and you were with your family and your sister Kelly who also is a great tracker like you and not saying hi cause I was embarrassed and you didn't recognize me first lol.

Hello(:




No I didn't actually say hi cause she was with her friends in their i think HCJC uniforms and I honestly doubted she would recognize me? Plus she doesn't know about my english name so lol. Lets just keep those memories buried for her i'm okay with that(:


HAHA. And you know what 2 seconds later when we crosing the traffic light and I was still freaking out visibly and Josh and Sharyl were asking me why when I bumped into Vanessa :o

Anna's trombone senior and best friend, a very pretty girl with huge eyes. :o





Freaky day. And no I'm not going to talk about Anna anymore than that cause I don't feel like it and you gossip-mongers are going to have to weasel it out of me, your chances are higher in person and if you buy me stuff \(^_^)/

BLAKE LEWIS

-SILENCE IS GOLDEN

I CHOOSE NOISE-


Blake Lewis is wise beyond his years, this is my new life philosophy[:

Track 05 How Many Words

I'm letting you go
You're letting me down
Been caught in your reign and I almost drowned
I'm letting you go, our love's black and blue
How many words does it take
To say I'm through?

[:


If you haven't noticed yet, I just bought myself a Blake Lewis album with extreme trepidation from Josh but lol. I don't regret it man I like his sound and general feel of music. Its like Justin Timberlake without the constant crass sex references which is a good thing :D
Upbeat peppy somewhat jazzy its like a Maroon 5 and JT cross yes please.

And of course the beatboxing is cool but it doesn't awe as much in the album as it does on stage probably because it sounds somewhat manufactured? I blame extensive music editing effects we're treated to on radio and stuff that make his beatboxing seem like just another feat of audio editing equipment hmm. But still mmmm. Fresh sound is fresh and happycat is happy :D I wonder if he's christian :o



Get your Audio DayDream in stores now[:



SO ANYWAY. Speech was okay lah I guess, didn't go as well as I would like it to, I forgot stuff, but hey I did the best I could right okay maybe not really but when I was trying I was trying wholeheartedly and all that so I mostly honoured God right(: Leaving it to You Lord the marks are what you will them to be(:

Lol2indiancostume. I still think the headthingy is more like a helmet than anything. BUT THANKS ANDREW FOR BEING A LIFESAVER FOR LENDING IT TO ME ON SUCH SHORT NOTICE AND BEING AN AWESOME TAMIL TEACHER HAHA. You rule bro. And it rocks to have you as a brother in Christ :D


MY HEAD REEKS OF JASMINE.


:blink:




Hit town after that to get clothes with Josh and Sharyl, Shereen was too shy to come but hey lol I can understand why right miss 15-year old (:

NO IM NOT RUINING HER LIFE CHARLENE DON'T KILL ME D=


Right. Hit t long johns where i swear everytime i go now the stupid counter person tries to cheat me into buying a drink upsize. Its not like Macdonalds "An upsize for you sir?" no. Its a very nonchalant delivery "Medium drink?" in a that's-the-normal-size manner which actually is a huge upsize that they charge you for lol. Retarded. Regular is the way to go people.


Somehow found our way to Heereen that I usually abhor going to but meh. HMV is love. If I'm ever going to work anywhere again I totally want to do HMW. 3 floors of music-pounding love and i like the uniform :D

SELLING GOOD MOVIES FOR 9.95 IS NOT RIGHT. HOW CAN THE DEPARTED COST LESS THAN DATE MOVIE. The IGNONOMY. THE INJUSTICE. BUT GAH.



Got some other stuff and ran over to Far East to grab a couple of shirts that Josh was like O.o but ilikeem so idon'tcare. :D

And thanks Josh for being so cool about the money thing I am eternally grateful yeah.


Hearing your stories about you and being a testimony to your class and seeing the work that is going on there is inspiring man. WRITE IT DOWN DAMMIT I INSIST SO I CAN READ IT TO MY CELL DO IT NOW.





Walking back home from Holland V is tiring O.o

How we got from town t holland you figure out yourself yes. Lol.



I HEREBY PROCLAIM THAT EVERYONE FROM CULTURE IS INVITED TO COOS THIS WEEK NOT COME ON PAIN OF DEATH.





Right. Ever so close to house parties we are. Ima sign off now cause i don't know what else t do here. Loolololol. Lata~

(:

Lol

Blind dates are lol.





MOVING ON.

So yesterday was insanely fun. Test in the morning was okay i guess but the real highlight of the day came much later. Was gonna head home t do speech i swear on pain of death from lye ee, but lo i bump into Josh and end up getting dragged to Holland V to meet Sharyl. The best part? Keenan who I had given up all hope of hanging with regularly somehow managed to get himself on the same bus AFTER HIS CLASS LAN WHICH HE REFUSED TO INVITE ME FOR GUH.

Lololololol. So you have me josh and sharyl. And you have me and keenan and holland v. Put together you have a cataclysmic explosion.

No shit. I swear it is insanely fun. Yesterday was amazing. I've always wanted to go out as a group like that for ages except everyone isn't free for some reasons or other. So much win on so many levels. Hilariously funny, boatloads of randomness and music and long talks.

Random thoughts about yesterday:

- its been too long since we've done something like that. Dammit.
- Starbucks have comfy chairs<3
- We need to stop all using the same wireless account that isn't even ours
- Sharyl looked good yesterday you go girl(:
- I need to learn how to make those meatballs of love
- Coke light is horribly addictive.
- Cold Rock is bad and unfair and for revenge we shall forever more go to Haagen opposite for premium but somehow cheaper ice cream that we will bring back to Cold Rock to hog seats and gulp free water
- Which we did :D
- Too bad about those girls, we almost had them XD
- Damn she was hot :o
- Josh misses all the good stuff
- I realise most music I like has a kickass piano intro and an emo guy singing :o
- OLD SCHOOL IS PRO SCHOOL
- Octopus balls are love now if i can get yewey to love me more
- Oo-er.
- God is awesome [:



KAY SCHOOL AND SPEECH TIME LATER YOAR

Oath of Social Communion

I swear once we clear this and the holidays start I'm gonna invite James with his cool xbox and Josh with his unlimited movies and Sharyl with her amazing piano skills and Keenan with his general awesomeness and the rest of the Culturians because they rock and Marvin because I haven't seen him in too long and Nat and Amber and that whole gang of cool dudes and Pat cause I miss him and Suren and Mark and Adora and Magdelene and Gerald and all the other Sports Camp alumni and Joel and Kelvin and everyone of TBC fame cause I owe them an outing and other-Marvin and Shafik and Momo and Sahira and Jess and Rui and Raf,Jenny, Hong Yi, Yewey and any other SLs I missed because we pwn and of course by extension the Red Campers especially that cute viking girl who took my number who I still love even though I hardly talk to them anymore and all the hockey people who I really need to hang out more with and Charmaine and Charlene Melodi and Alison and Shereen and all the cool people I met at Fuel-Up like Kenny Chris Howai and Jesselene and of course my own cell peeps like Cheryl and Bellejoy, Hannah and Barney Ryan and all the others, and not forgetting FMSA-ers like Jarrel and Arisa and SheEreen+Rae+Tong+Libing+Kai+Jabez+Ben+Shyanne and all the other FMS people who have pulled me out a scrap at sometime or other like Melena and of course Yanhong and Wendy and Rui Ming and both the Ivans and the rest who I know like Azhar if they'll have me, random cool dudes like Suff and always Andrew and Germaine even though she hates my bling and Chanel and Sherlyn who I'm super going to miss when she goes to TP - of course NPcell is always welcome cause they always put a smile on my face and you're on crack if you think I'm going to forget people like Genny Mark Ying Hao and Tab and heck why not invite Audrey and no I haven't forgotten my classmates whom I don't click that well with at times but I still love them so all 16 of you are remembered[:
and

EVERY SINGLE DAY IS GOING TO BE A HOUSE PARTY.


I promise.

Schooltime :/

This is gold.

"Movie Announcement

Warner Brothers studio announced on January 18, 2008 that a live action movie is to be made and is scheduled for late 2009. The movie is currently in pre-production"

http://captainplanetthemovie.ytmnd.com/


YES PLEASE CAPTAIN PLANET AANG THE AIRBENDER HAS NOTHING ON THE HEART MONKEY :D



Remember him? :D







I...don't wanna know.





ANYWAY. Aang is cool and all,

But Captain Planet kicks his sorry butt

Er wait I mean Captain Planet

[:

!!! <3 On a more serious note, its not as if they don't have actors for the job.


Gaia - Earth Mother person - Aisha Tyler



Kwame - Earth dude - Keith Robinson from Dreamgirls :o



Linka - Wind chick - Katherine Heigl of 27 dresses fame but I liked her better when she was having random sex in Grey's Anatomy



Gi - Water - Zhang Ziyi Okay i don't agree with this one im sure Lucy Liu would do a much better job but hey not my pictures I stole them from some other blog [:



Wheeler - Atypical fire leader jock dude - Sean William Scott



Mati - Lolol heart boy - Gael Garcia Bernal




Captain Planet - Mr wtfpwn - Cameron Mathison :o


You soooo want a piece of him now don'tcha girls(:

YES YOU DO. ESPECIALLY JOANNA

Credits for last slew of pics go to this guy [: http://benajohnson.blogspot.com/2006_12_01_archive.html


I really should get some work done AHHH IM SCREWED I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING YET AND ITS 9.40 DON'T KILL ME LYE EE

AHHHHHH

COME BACK TOMMY WE NEED YOU








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Yes yes i know i was supposed to be researching speech and stuff but i got horribly diverted by power ranger trivia on wikipedia. So sue me. I never got to indulge in them as a kid. Uh. Its hilarious. Tomorrow I will devote a whole entry to teh mighty morphin power rangers.

(:

And the day after Captain Planet. I insist. Peace out (:

I have been enlightened

THE MAN SPEAKS THE TRUTH. HOW COULD I EVER HAVE BEEN SO BLIND



































































Oh right. [:







And if you're aghast that I'm posting a picture of a 16-year old disney star getting fondled by a dead trout this is all i have to say to you:







Later :D

Goo Guh

Hello just popping to say that Keann's not here right now, he's been possesed by this demon-thingy called Responsibility and his best friend Irritating Wisdom. As such he has been studying socpsych for the past 2 hours and will be heading to bed now before waking up to revise for 3 more, followed by speech planning at 12 and essay writing at 5. This also means that Keann will not be able to crash the fun games outreach thingy even though he deathly wants too and he hopes his groupmates stumble upon this blog and appreciate the sacrifice




"Greater love has no one that he who lays down his life for his friends"



Uh. I don't think it was supposed to be interpreted that way BUT HEY ITS LEGIT. THERE GOES TOMORROW'S SOCIAL LIFE ):




On a blogger's note today's church was coolsome and all, cell was fun and dinner was hilarious at shereen's expense. No not sheereen. Shereen. Wrap your heads around that one, gentlemen[:

Notable things that happened:
- Another song i don't know that was played at cell :/
- CHARMAINE DRESSED DOWN : O
- The flabbergasted look on sher's face when i told her when her birthday was was priceless
- I actually used an umbrella
- Shereen and Denise have so got to meet each other.
- Charmaine and Sher are actually pretty awesome camp planners :o
- I found an alarm clock :blink:




I STILL WANT TO GOOOOOOO TOMORROW BUT GAH WHY LORD BLEAGH.

BUT I STILL LOVE YOU.

[:

Hickleberry

I love my cell. Hah they're awesome people. I meanlike even though the relationship i have with them -and the way they see me- is kinda different from the relationships i generally have with other groups of people - hey i actually kinda like it, and i do love every single of them to bits even though its hard to say so. Hopefully they feel the same way about me. Meh.


Its just really funny hanging out with a group of people that seem to be entirely not in awe of the "oh you're in mass comm" and "wow you know everyone" and "lololol you're damn hyper" parts of me, to be honest fine yeah I've gotten too used to being treated like a king. Says something about me and maybe I should stop expecting people to - oh you get the idea. Lol.

Seems like i've actually started believing that i'm that popular person that everybody loves. Uh. I'm sorry Lord take away my pride and every single blessing i've had is from You soz open my eyes kay[:

No guys this isn't a post to start bragging about myself and how everyone is in awe of me so don't get offended in any way people -_-

Cause I treasure each and every one of my relationships with every single one of you and thanks for indulging my crazy whims and moods and retardedness over the past year[:




(:





OKAY SHALL ATTEMPT TO STUDY SOCPSYCH NOW

Shudder

So yesterday was kinda weird. Like. Uhm. Meh. Well here's Josh's take on the matter. Don't burn your eyes lol.



















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:/ Gah well. Uh. Yeah. Make of it what you will. I'm more O.o than anything right now this instant lol.



Well that was embarrassing.

Lol

As I sat there in English
class,
I stared at the girl next to me.She was
my so-called 'best friend'. I
stared at her long, silky hair. I
wished she were mine, but she didn't
notice me like that.And I knew it.

After class she walked up to me and
asked me for the notes she had missed
the day before, and I handed them to
her.She said 'thanks' and gave me a
kiss on the cheek. I wanted to
tell her. I wanted her to know that I
don't want to be just friends. I
love her, but I'm just too shy. And I
don't know why.

11th Grade...

The phone rang. It was her on the
other end. She was in tears, mumbling
on and on about how her love had
broke her heart.

She asked me to come over because she
didn't want to be alone, so I
did. As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes,
wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, a
Drew Barrymore movie,and three bags of
chips, she decided to go to sleep. She
looked at me,said 'thanks,' and gave
me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell
her. I want her to know that I don't
want to be just friends. I love her,
but I'm just too shy.And I don't know
why.

12th Grade...

The day before prom she walked to
my locker. 'My date is sick,' she
said. He's not going to go. Well,
I didn't have a date and in 7th grade
we made a promise that if neither
of us had dates we would go together
just as 'best friends,' so we
did.

Prom night, after everything was
over,I was standing at her front door
step. I stared at her. She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal
eyes. I want her to be mine, but she
doesn't think of me like that,and I
know it. Then she said, 'I had
the best time,thanks!' and gave me a
kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't
want to be just friends. I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know
why...

Graduation Day...

A day passed. A week passed. A
month passed. Before I could blink, it
was graduation day. I watched as
her perfect body floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma. I
wanted her to be mine, but she didn't
notice me like that, and I knew
it. Before everyone went home, she came
to me in her smock and hat, and
she cried as I hugged her. Then, she
lifted her head from my shoulder
and said, 'You're my best friend,
thanks!' and gave me a kiss on
the cheek. I want to tell her. I want
her to know that I don't want to be
just friends. I love her, but I'm just
too shy. And I don't know why...

A Few Years Later...

Now, I sit in the pews of the
church. She is getting married,now. I
watched her say, 'I do' and drive
off to her new life, married to
another man. I wanted her to be
mine but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it. But before she
drove away, she came to me and
said, 'You came!' She said, 'thanks!'
and kissed me on the cheek.I want to
tell her. I want her to know that I
don't want to be just friends. I love
her, but I'm just too shy. And I
don't know why...

Funeral...

Years pass, and I looked down at
the coffin of the girl who used to be
my best friend.' At the service
they read a diary entry she had wrote
in her high school years. This is
what it read:

I stare at him wishing he
were mine. But he doesn't notice
me like that, and I know it. I want to
tell him. I want him to know that
I don't want to be just friends. I
love him, but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why. I wish he would
tell me he loved me...i wish I did
too...i thought to myself, and I
cried.

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Please lol. Life doesn't work that way. I would know :rolls eyes:




Let's not go there

AHHHHHHH

JOANNA HOW COULD YOU DISSECT THAT AFTER RAISING IT FOR FOUR MONTHS. AHHHH.

EVIL PERSON

D=

Whoa coolios

Hey Keann! :)

This year, I feel the Lord's leading me into a time of Bible
study... to dig deeper into His Word, and allow that to be the
foundation for my life, rather than just what I hear from church at
weekends... but to really get grounded in the Word... :) So I was
thinking of starting a little group where we can come together to learn
from each other and from God.
I was wondering if you were interested in joining such a group. And if
you know anyone who wants to study the Word as well... Let me know?
Lala


:o

Looking at last post, can you say answered prayer :o

YES PLEASE :D Who else is interested? (:


I distinctly remember wanting to blog about some other stuff but i forgot what it was. Guh. It was really important too D=


Tag people, i reply them! (:

Draw me deeper

Oh Lord don't ever let me forget just how much I love you and just how much you've done for me cuz I can feel myself start to take all these things for granted and I never want to do that guh/




You've given me direction, security no one else can provide, a safety blanket, gifts i mostly take for granted, experiences and miracles in my life that I can't exactly seem to draw to mine but I distinctly remember them being present in my life.

Assignment miracles. Countless
Time miracles
You healing my arm in malaysia. I'm damn sure I heard it broke and the fear and despair that washed over me lying there in the middle of nowhere.
Testimonies before my eyes
Self-worth
Random acts of providence of money, internet etc when you knew I really needed them
Taking me back over and over again
Loving me
Me getting into mass comm
My girlfriend and all the lessons you taught me from that
Thousands more that I don't remember cuz Satan doesn't want me too but I pray that you put them into my head through dreams and whatnot.

Don't let me forget Lord, draw me deeper and keep the fire burning within me cuz the fuel's waning, make me delirious for Your Name(:


I pray and I pray and I pray fervently for all the outreaches Lord, but especially for the movie marathon. Help me ask people to come Lord, to not fear rejection and all that, and just open doors for me to ask aye. Help me be a living testimony of Your Love pleeeasee I wanna and give me a hunger for Your Word. I pray for guidance Lord. From You and from the Spirit and from teachers. Show me where to read and learn(:


Gnight Lord, bless tomorrow in Your Name? (:


I can feel the passion coming back Lord, and I thank You :D Use me omigosh don't let me stumble.



falling on my knees in worship
giving all i am to seek your face
lord all i am is yours

my whole life i place in your hands
god of mercy humble i bow down
in your presence at your throne

i called you answered
and you came to my rescue
and i want to be where you are