BLOG CONTEST!!

Obligatory National Day post:

So I sat into my school's NDP celebration thing. Now unlike JC/secondary school, ours is not compulsory, the convention centre wouldn't fit that many people in it anyway.

But we still know how to throw a damn good party!

Here are some of the pictures from the event, mostly towards the finale, there are more pictures if you have time on your hands, just click on -->THIS<-- The link above goes to Priscilla's Mutiply Album page, cause it was her camera, and thank you so much for going through them for me girl (:

So National Day:







Yes, we have a huge remote controlled blimp. I know right. : D





So this is the finale already, everyone who performed before is up on stage especially including Detention, that underground dance group from nowhere who somehow found themselves on the big stage :D

Hee. Josh you were awesome, and everyone else there, Pris, Adin, Li, Yixin, Rachel, Mel, everyone else who I just met but don't know cause I had to drop out for awhile, you rocked the house down aye. And I'm definitely coming back, just let me clear these goddamned final assignments.


NOTE: To all those who keep asking me if I was on stage, no I wasn't. I was in the crowd covering the event for newswriting like everyone else. I would like to be, but hey. Give these guys their due. I had nothing to do with their a-a-amazing performance :D


And then the world EPXLODESXSES [Gigantic Grin]










See, this is why you should sit into rehearsals people. The moment Detention ended their act, I ran the heck up to get the spot for the photo. I didn't see much of the pyrotechnics myself though, too busy frantically clicking away trying to spam photos without looking. I never said i was a good photographer..




So. The pyrotechnics end, and I'm sitting there still in kneeling position on top of crowd wondering if I got what I wanted, and suddenly the crowd turns around and starts cheering at Something Big Right Behind Me. I turn around and find myself staring in the face of a huge confetti cannon..

*runs*








The pictures do no real justice to what happened to me, really. :/ I sat there buried in falling red and white snow for like 5 whole minutes with the cannon to my back..



So much for sitting in rehearsals..



The blimp takes its leave..




And then i stop being a reporter and start being the general big occasion crazy monkey dude all over again :D I get dragged on stage sometime at this point.



: Felix Tan, Radio Lecturer for us and one of the MCees of the night. Making stupid jokes about the smoke machine and the haze from Beijing..



And that's Adin. Haha. Wonderful guy. Amazing dancer, spontaneous crazy dude. Loves God, and is still single.

HAHA.




Annnnd that's some of Detention. Haha.



Yeah(: What I would give to be a part of that photo, legitimately. Heh. Okay. Soon. SOON. IM AH COMING BACK CAUSE I NEED TO GET BACK INTO DANCE SO BAD.

Plus I have all that catch-up to do ._.


If you want to see a few more photos, click -->HERE<-- , once again, its Priscilla's Multiply Album thingy :D

Gosh, now i have to write a proper story. I hope I don't screw it up..


Oh yeah I almost forgot. Here's the blog of the guy who started it all, creator, choreographer, music mixer, teacher, amazing friend, inspiration to us all, Josh Simon. Go check it out ;D

Here's a quote:

"ANd OMG ! WE're going on stage in THREE HOURS!!
After all these practices, rehearsals, new people, new friends, new dance moves!
WE're UP ON STAGE!
Im smiling coz... about 3-4 months ago, I was sitting at the convention Centre with Keann, sneaking in to watch NRA"s Fantasia. A little suggestion was made by the two of us, to start a dance group. One of my dreams at that moment, was to perform on the convention centre stage... after 3-4 months... we're gonna be on it, taking over it, in 3 hours."

Heh. Go see. And here's a final shoutout to everyone in Detention that worked so hard, laughed so hard, and came together to choreo various parts of the whole thing, cause it was definitely a huge group effort. :D See you guys soon aye (:


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SO ANYWAY, BLOG CONTEST.




Quoting my good friend Matt:

Attention friends and everyone else reading this who has a blog!

I NEED YOUR HELP!

See there's this little contest going on where the winner gets to bring 50 friends along for a private movie screening of that new animation movie Wall-E. To increase the chances of winning, i'll need your participation and contribution..

What you basically have to do is to post an entry on YOUR blog recounting the craziest thing you've ever done for love, signing off with "Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008" THEN linking to my blog (matthew-zachary.blogspot.com) as the originator blog.


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I don't care much for the movie, but hey! Movie theatre, 50 of us kids taking over, PILLOWFIGHT, I'm in :DD


So here's my contribution to Matt:

"The craziest thing i've done for love.. planning and saving up for her birthday 5 months in advance, so i could buy her a huge ice-cream cake and a gigantic tweety bird soft toy, her favourite, for her 16th birthday in school. And getting her friends to give her the cake and take the credit, and not being at the cake-cutting, because she would have just felt weird about it, and have been a ruined birthday. I watched from the corner of the canteen."

Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008

Originator blog: http://matthew-zachary.blogspot.com

Yeah well. Hey. We were all stupid, once. So anyone who reads this, just type that out and link matthew-zachary etc at the bottom the way I did, okay? It won't take no time at all(:

Lol. Okay newswriting. Happy National Day! CHURCHTIME NOW.

Boo

I would like a bike.


(cough)

Yes Keann

"Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; He's the one who will keep you on track. Don't assume that you know it all (:"




Hear that Keann. Haha. You're going to post this here so you see it again and again mmkay.


Lots of work to do tonigghttt.


/starts proofreading

I shall now attempt to fry a banana

AND HERE ARE THE RESULTS:



:/ HEY IT STILL TASTES GOOD OKAY. AND ITS LIKE THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE MAKING ANY SORT OF BATTER. IDK.

Anyway despite that, I was still feeling quite happy about myself until I went to google a picture of fried bananas:



Sigh. WELL OKAY THEN YOU TEACH ME HOW TO COOK. BAH ):


Oh my sister attempted to make one:




And then we chucked a whole lot more flour into the batter and tried another:





I think the last one needed more sugar..if im going to throw that much batter on it i need to balance out the sugar lol.


I still have two more bananas in the bag, but I'm tired. Lol. Well. Was fun. I wonder if fried oranges are any good? :s


Bleh. HAHA OKAY NIGHT

Quiet 2

I think I know where God wants to use me. Heh. Can you guess XD

Lets just write about you, oh God(:

SO I’m here now listening to We Fall Down by Chris Tomlin, I think its been 10 minutes since I finished the last thing I was writing just below, lol. Ah well. But hey(:

I think its going to be a huge transgression if I don’t try to capture every miniscule moment of what I’m going through now, just sitting here looking at God(:

We fall down,
We lay our crowns,
At the feet of Jesus

The greatness of
Your mercy and love
At the feet of Jesus

We cry holy, holy, holy
We cry holy, holy, holy,
We cry holy, holy, holy,
Is the Lamb(:

We fall down,
We lay our crowns,
At the feet of Jesus

The greatness of
Your mercy and love
At the feet of Jesus

We cry holy, holy, holy
We cry holy, holy, holy,
We cry holy, holy, holy,
Is the Lamb(:

*cue saxophone solo *


Heh. I switched to this song cause my ears were getting a bit tired, and even Hillsong songs were getting a bit jarring to my ears. Even Hosanna haha. I don’t know whyyy, I don’t know much about music, if someone could tag me about this it would be cool. Haha.

I don’t want this to end. I know, that generally once I head home, I’ll get distracted by stuff, the Internet, trying to navigate past parents, siblings, etc. Yeah. Yes, I could pray about it Lord, for You to give me the strength and focus to do this at home too, but hey. Haha. I’m rather afraid that I’ll pray about it and promise God that I’ll do it, and then I don’t do it.

See, one of my greatest flaws is that I say so much, promise so much, have people see so much great potential and believe in me, and then I don’t do it, and let them all down.

Which is why I implore you to not take this blog as a gauge of the person I am. A couple of people occasionally come and tell me “Oh you’re so holy”, but I’m not, honest. I’m nowhere near people who don’t talk as much, don’t blog as much, but do so much more. Melodi, Chonghao, Yisin, Hannah, Rachel, Charlene, etc. People who serve, people who actually do things, and if you guys are reading this blog right now, I want you to know that you’re a great inspiration to me, and a great blessing from God to the people around you. Your parents, your friends, your siblings, and the people you serve. And God (:

I do want to get there, eventually, but I keep getting held back by all these weaknesses of mine. Like for example, turning up for cell what 2 hours late? With no good reason? Letting Lala down? So yeah. I have a long way to go, Lord.

Oh I know. You’re here with me. And I can’t do this on my own strength, and it’s a partnership with You. But I think lately, I’ve been saying too much of that and then not actually doing anything. So yeah. I don’t want to make any more promises than the ones I’ve already made, Lord. I want to fulfil the ones I’ve already made to You, and the people around me.

Which is why I didn’t go for altar call yesterday. Haha. See, Pastor Jen called for us who needed to actually DO something about the things God had been calling us to do, or to let go of sins and distractions keeping us back, to come to the front in a representation of what we’re promising God that we’re going to do.

Altar call is generally something kinda hard to do. To step out in front of 300 plus people who know you, in response to a specific problem the pastor has laid out as told to her by God, or a call by God etc, takes a certain amount of faith and boldness that God is going to protect you as you go out, and not let any judgement or whatever takes place.

Except for me it isn’t that hard. The issue of “omgosh going up to front how I’m shy” has never been much of an issue for me, and it usually isn’t a problem for me to throw everything to God, and step out in faith. Y’know? And the emotional charge-up, etc.

For me, the problem is that after the altar call, and after the leader praying for me, is me just letting it lie, and then letting it die.

So yesterday, my personal altar call, my personal step of boldness and faith in God, was to not go up. A representation of how I’m going to try and stop promising and promising and promising, but get down and do things first, before talking about them.

Yeah. Or something. Haha. So the pray+bless campaign! Gosh! Monday! How are we going to do this, Ngee Ann people!? :s

Howwww. Haha. But damn. I’m not going to let this one die. God don’t let me let this one dieee.
Like the 30 sec kneel-down and pray thing I was gonna start in school. It kinda failed really badly. I did it like twice I think on the first day, and it was great, and you could really feel God there, but then..I just let it die. ><

Bah :/

WELL GOD LETS MAKE THIS ONE WORK. HAHA. OKAY(:

Yup, once Bev gets here, I’m going to bless her. Actually maybe I could go around the tables at Starbucks now, and bless random people, but I think I might get kicked out, and I’m like kinda shy so –

>.<

YES, KEANN HAS SHY MOMENTS. OKAY. I’M A PERSON JUST LIKE ANYONE ELSE.

Except maybe Hannah and Rachel. XD

HAHA :D

You two were awesome up there yesterday yo. Don’t ever lose that spark of love and trust and faith in God, kay? You’re a huge inspiration to the rest of us, alright :D

See you guys soon at Day of Power or something. :D

Guess I better get down to editing that testimonial..

Gosh I feel super guilty sitting here hogging the 4-set sofa all by myself, its exactly what I hate about others when I come into Starbucks looking for a place to sit with friends >.<

Ahhhh Bev come soon. Haha :/

Gaggh. So much to do today.

Quiet

Hmmm. So I’m sitting alone in Starbucks now, with no phone and no Internet cuz I don’t have my WirelessSG password. Haha. But I have my com! And my headphones! And my bible and my notebook!

:D

So for the past hour I’ve just been focusing on God. Heh. No real great focus to it. No great revelations. But it’s a good time and I’m enjoying myself just sitting and soaking in God’s presence (:

Cause Lord, like Sherry said, I need to hunger for You more(:

So. Guys. My phone is nuked. I’m quitting WoW. And now my Internet’s gone, and I’m stuck here alone cause my friend is a little late.

And most would see this as “omg why shit your life sucks ahahaha”.

But can you see what an amazing blessing this is, people? I would get so distracted at home. The bed, the food, the tv, etc. But here and now I’m forced to go to God cause there’re no other distractions here, and I thank You God for this time. Heh.

He works in amazing ways(: Hey, I’ve known for awhile now that I need to spend more time with Him kay, I mean, I haven’t been doing QT for quite awhile now, cuz I wake up and I’m distracted by WoW and other things. And I missed cell yesterday cause I got caught up by WoW. Even though at the same point I wish I wasn’t playing WoW.

And I think that’s what a lot of us go through for a lot of things in our life. But when I actually manage to get away, and I come to church and service, there is a sense of belonging and rightness that cannot be replaced and compared to anything else. WoW is fun, sure. So are the other things that we do. But when I come to God, its all that and more, and theres a sense of rightness flowing through all of me, and I know this is exactly where I want to, and need to be(:

Yesterday during worship was simple, but so profound for me because it was so simple. The whole time, the words “Right here, right now, this is where I want to be Lord” were flowing through my head, and I had this irrevocable sense of peace. Not just peace from worshipping God, or peace from distractions in life. It was all that, plus the peace of knowing that this is my place in the life God wants me to be(:


And I never want to go away Lord, even though sometimes I think to the contrary. Like what a lot of us do. We get deceived, we get distracted. We get told that this or that is more fun, or more important, but somehow when we manage to come back or be dragged back, You show us that nothing really compares(:

And I don’t regret at all being dragged out to Starbucks today Lord, if only to write this, and to spend the past hour looking at nothing but You. :D

I should do this more often. Haha. Every Sunday at Starbucks mebbe? No real need to ask God for some amazing revelation or amazing solution to some problem or other. As in, those are great too I think, but sometimes I think God wants to let us bask in His Glory just for the simple sake of basking in it(:

There doesn’t always have to be a complicated Greater Purpose to it yo. Heh.


Love you too God, and thank you for this time(:

Oooh

SO i was going through my photos today:




Watchout imma keelchu



Heh.



What iz going onz? :s



Don't ask.



(:

Hmmmmm

Oh who am i kidding. I'm not a good dancer. Lol.



But force me into a studio for 2 weeks with youtube and all and i very well could be, s'long as you keep me happy.


Gosh my sense of I-can-do-anything is incorrigible.


But seriously! :/ I shall not explain myself any further, I think i've dug a big enough hole for myself already HAHA.



So i was bugging around on the com again, and i suddenly feel quite inspired even as the effects of Rapture slowly fade away, cause I just stumbled on yet another dancer's blog. And i've decided that my current favourite people are dancers who love God :D


Who says the two don't go together? (:




Ohyeah. My mom. *wince*



ANYWAY. Here plugs testimony. I might as well, after forwarding it to Keenan and all.



WARNING: REALLY LONG POSSIBLY OVERDEEP POST GOING THROUGH ABOUT THE PAST ALL OF MY LIFE BUT IF YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW ME BETTER THAN YOU KNOW YOURSELF OR SOMETHING, GO RIGHT AHEAD.



Otherwise, scroll right down to the bottom and save both you and me some grief. :D


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I grew up in a Christian family, you already know that. Haha. Went to church since before I can remember, grew up with stories of David, Esther, Samuel and the Five Loaves and Two Fishes. All my life, knowing that this person called Jesus the Son of God lived and died for us, washing our black blood white with his red blood, etc.

Problem was, growing up like that, I never took it seriously much. I mean, I guess I was saved at like K2? But looking back on my life since then it wasn’t really about God. It was about me. What I wanted. My reasons. My decisions. My kinda badly skewed up motivations:/

And it showed lah. I never had much respect for teachers or anyone since young. Got sent to the principal forever in primary school for getting soaked in the rain, being the ringleader of this gang against a rival gang thing (hey, it was Primary 1. Come on. I sat down on first day of school and looked across, and decided I didn’t like this guy cause his name was funny, and he didn’t like me either, so yeah ._.)

Was smart though. Growing up my parents and me heard the same thing over and over again from my various teachers. “Qi En is a really smart kid, but he needs to focus. Grow up. Have respect. Etc” And that didn’t really help things much…

So I got worse. Argued with parents a whole lot. Got pissed when they did the whole “don’t argue with me. You are so disrespectful” shut off thing. Which happened often. Didn’t do my work. Still got in trouble a lot. In church, I knew the “Bible”. The stories and stuff. But I doubt I really Knew the Word. Carried on the way I had always carried on. Lazy. Naughty. Sleeping or playing during messages. Church was just this thing that was cool, hey Jesus died for me yay I believe that, now lets have some fun!

And other parents and teachers that were heavily involved in the church, the stuff they did, I looked at them as they walked past and thought “I want to have fun first. Serving God can wait.”

So that was basically my mindset as a kid. Not once did I give any thought to the fact that I wasn’t being a good Christian. Friends who were Buddhist and stuff were the prefects and all, and I was pretty much the most notorious kid back in Fairfield Primary, where I was from Primary 3 onwards. Didn’t do schoolwork starting from Primary 4, fighting, stealing plastic soccer balls from the PE room, ignoring Chinese teachers, getting into a fight with EVERY single one of them that taught me.

..Yeah. And secondary school got worse. Never did my work. Never copied either. Lied a lot, to everyone. I stole. From the library. From my parents’ wallets. From friends. Classmates. I would go into classrooms during morning assembly and ninja out money from wallets left there.

):

Not something I’m proud of at all, but yeah.. * wince *


And God was..Idk where He was in this. Really. I hardly knew what I was doing at that point.

So suddenly I’m Sec 4, after much drama all through my life. Not very well-liked, not quite sure why, doing very badly in mostly everything except English and Lit. Yeah. And I’ve stopped going to church. Mostly because I just can’t be bothered. My parents think I’m going to friend’s churches (Relationship with parents really bad at this point too), but really I’m staying at home, using the computer.

And 2-3 weeks later, everything falls to bits.


Life wasn’t great to begin with, but I was kinda dealing. But this particular week, everything just shattered and at the same time. All my results got owned. English and Lit included. Friends kinda hated me. Parents…lol. I had no money. And my love life..

Hey, don’t laugh at the love life bit. Okay. That was painful.


Lol. Er. Yeah. So I had enough, and I was upstairs alone somewhere in school above the canteen feeling very bad about myself. And suddenly I can’t take it anymore and I break. I break down, start sobbing, (ok the sobbing part had been happening quite frequently over the past two years of my life, its been quite bad), and I tell God that I’m sorry, I’m really sorry for running away from Him and I’ve had enough, I want to come back, I want to come back like the prodigal son, I’ve tried things my way and its failed horribly, I can’t be that kind of person, and I can only be living in You. But Lord please please will You show me a way. I want to come back to You but can You please show me a way.

):


I end the prayer, wipe my tears, and feel a bit better about myself. There’s this vague sense of peace, but not really? And I go downstairs wondering what’s going to happen now, because I really have no idea, and I don’t do this repentance thing very often. ._.


And I’m downstairs, and I see Grace Kee being surrounded by a group of guys, her classmates, and they’re heckling her like crazy, because she got them all in serious trouble a week ago when they swore, bullied, insulted and threw things at their form teacher, and Grace ran out and told the principal.

This is River Valley, mind you. Prestigious top Chinese school or something. Lol.


And the guys have all these really logical reasons about why there was no harm done, the teacher never tells on them anyway, they’ve done it before, there was no need for you to go and get us in trouble, you didn’t want to do it because you’re the class monitor or anything, you just wanted to get us in trouble. And the whole class was there agreeing with them.

And Grace was alone on this, but she simply kept repeating that “She felt it was wrong”, and you could see the fervor and conviction there.

And she was just there, doing that, and being an awesome testimony to me right there at that point in time and it was like God telling me “Here, this is the kind of Christian I want you to be”.

And it was an amazing thing for me. She didn’t even know it. Now somehow, over the past two weeks, I had gotten kinda close to Grace, and Maria (who are both in COOS), and I knew they were in COOS. And Christians.

And that’s the kind of Christian I wanted to be. And I got to thinking: If COOS can produce good fruit like that, how can they be all that bad? For Maria and Grace have this general reputation for being super nice, especially Maria, for always letting people walk over her because she’s so nice, its like a running joke in Maria’s class. And here I am, a Christian like them, but nothing like them at all. And they are from COOS!

For I’ve been told my whole life growing up that Charismatic Churches are bad, they don’t follow the Bible, they do their own practices, they do funny things not in the Bible like speaking in tongues, and only Jesus can heal people, etc. And when told about it, always given two churches as an example. City Harvest, because they’re the biggest, and COOS because they’re just next door.

So yeah. But I’ve just been amazingly touched by God, and I want to come back to Him, so the next week I go to COOS for the first time ever with Grace and Maria to find out what I’m missing.

And I am awed. As in, the songs are so familiar, songs I used to sing in BB back in primary school, and you can just see that everyone is loving God so much! As in, all those pointers about COOS and you know, they just jump around, they want to have fun, its not really about God, its bad, went right out the window.

Because I could clearly see, and feel, all around me, that the focus of this whole thing was only God. Only God. In everyone’s faces. It wasn’t about having fun, but wholehearted devotion to serving God. And the passion was so evident there.

And I was like whoa : o
And Pastor Jen came up to give the message. This was about end July 2006. And the message just spoke so greatly to me. Like she was using her own experiences to talk about something, and it was exactly and I mean scarily exactly what I was going through in my own life. Things like that. Like God was speaking right into the most wounded parts of my heart.

And over the next few weeks and months, God proceeded to break me down every single week, with the messages from Pastor Jen and Pastor Bee?, and the altar calls that were directed pointedly at me, and just being so real in my life(:


I mean, I still didn’t really know what to make of the tongues thing at first, as in the weeks I happened to be there at first, for some reason there were no or very little tongues and stuff, until Pastor Derek came down. I was very sensitive that week, and very conflicted, I remember. Haha. Went up to Pastor Bee afterwards to ask questions, and read that whole part of Corinthians regarding it.


But even though I didn’t quite know what to make of it, I stayed anyway, for it was clear that God was in this church, for you could see so much good fruit being produced, and I stayed.


To cut a long story short, 2 years down the road, look at me now, and where God has taken me, its been a crazy two years, and I feel the only two most real years of my life. When people ask: “What’s the most favourite moment in your life”, I can’t answer them, because every single week when I come and pour out my heart to God during worship, it is incomparable to anything else I’ve experienced throughout the week, even though it may have been a blast that particular week. Nothing can compete! And it happens week after week! :D


And its just been, whoa, lah. Haha. Plus my background coming from Fishermen Of Christ Fellowship, and still being stuck in the middle now cause my whole family still goes there, has given me a greater sense I think than most people my age about how inter-church conflict and gossip and judging and all can be so bloody dangerous. And how it can escalate so badly. And how its such a serious problem and very real today.

Things like that. You know last week at service, 26th July, a girl from Natalie’s (Melodie Ghui’s sister) cell came up to me and told me that God told her to tell me that “He has something very special planned for me, to not be discouraged and not lose faith”! And things like these keep happening. Over and over again. And I simply cannot deny the effect He’s been having in my life, miracle after miracle, and I couldn’t get away from Him even if I tried. Haha.

All the glory to Him (:
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I think my posts are too wordy. BUT I DON'T HAVE A CAMERA SEE. HINT HINT.


Ha.



Things I want to be important to me:

God
Dance
Love
Craziness
Swims, runs.
Friends
Soccer and other random things.
A book to lose myself in.


I have very simple needs, haha.



Gosh I need a game of soccer. I haven't had a good old one in years. I think that's almost literal. Someone? ANYONE? I need to run, chase the ball, sprint like nothing else matters, lose the ball, run halfway across the field again, jump, chest, shoot, score. Die gasping afterwards. And do it all over again. I need to feel the freedom in my limbs again. Sitting in front of the com just doesn't cut it, and turning on youtube to pop to something isn't quite exactly the same. BLAAAGH.

That said, I miss having a good book to read too. A nice warm tight little room, a huge comfy chair, a steaming mug of cocoa or something, a fire going, a radio going on softly in the background, and the phone within arm's reach. And the dog right over there by my feet in the basket.


No, I don't actually have a room like that, but just wait. Its right next on my wishlist right after the room all full of pillows and the pool in the middle of the house above the dining room, which is like below, and the pool is the ceiling. And the run with my three dogs.





WHAT. IM A DREAMER. HOW IS THIS A SURPRISE TO YOU. HAHA.



Just because I don't stop to think doesn't mean I don't stop to dream. :D





Quotes are coming out of my ears today, it seems. :x




HAHA OKAY BRB

Blogging on the PC while the internet is down

I’ve said before that I’m not going to do anything with my love life till I’m 21, for various reasons.

And as such I’m wrenching myself as far away as I possibly can from all possible maybe-relationships and crushes.

And theres always that whole deep-seated fear that even if I did, it would all go to pieces anyway.




Right now I’m experiencing a huge wave of i-miss-you though. Sitting here half-wishing that I wasn’t doing the whole 21 thing, sitting here wondering what it’d be like to have that special someone, that someone that I’d banter with, make fun of and made fun of in return, that someone to be silly and stupid with, that person to hug and hug back, that person to slap me awake when I’m being retarded (negatively), and trusting me to do the same in return if need be, that person who’d love God as much and more than I do, and to worship Him together. To laugh, to cry, and laugh again, to jump around and share the magic moments with, to jump in the sea with, to stay up til late watching the non-existant sunset and talk the night away anyway. To show up at her doorstep on the most random of days with breakfast from halfway across the island just because I want to, and because I felt like it. To run a mile with, to catch movies with, to dance, sing, and all those things. To come back to after a huge epic exhausting day with the guys, because I want to. To wait forever for.


Cause I wanna stare into those eyes that are a window into that amazing soul that inspires and awes and makes me smile and I can’t do anything but look at you.



If there was someone, of course.


What were you thinking. Lol. It would maybe be nice though..



Hmm an hour to kill. Lets go write that testimonial for Pastor Josh.

[An hour later]

OKAY IT IS WRITTEN AND SENT. HAHA. SHOULD I POST IT HERE. TAG ME IF YOU WANT ME TO.




I think Keenan is jumping around screaming attention whore right now. Um ._.



BUT COME ON. BLOG INTERACTIVITY YO.

WHEEEEEEE

I AM BACK.HELLO.







: D SO MUCH HAS BEEN GOING ON KAY. And i've had. Like. 1+ hour's worth of sleep over the past 60 hours. BUT IM STILL GOOD CAUSE I WAS AT RAPTURE LAST NIGHT AND IM STILL FLOATINNNGGGGG.




Even though i have like, no legitimate link to SAJC at all.


And don't say honorary student or something cuz that's just lame -.- I've been an "honorary" member of of too many groups in my life already and it never works out..


Elaboration: Secondary School. Sec 1, I didn't like my class. Class next door seemed so much cooler than the people in my class. And the girls were hot so...

Didn't work out much. Worked out for awhile, but then my own class got pissed at me, and when next door class got pissed at me..

YEAH WELL I DIGRESS.


OKAY. But yeah. Idk why. I kinda kinda wish that maybe I was in SA right now or something. Can't pinpoint it, its not just because of their dance or anything....


I think its just, cause, I miss that school spirit thing so much, and the environment.

I never ever experienced much of it to begin with but yeah...


Collective Camaraderie means a lot to me. And i think i was quite envious last night, when everyone knew everyone, and was smiling at everyone, and taking photos like it was prom night all over again, and i wasn't a part of it :|


You'll never get something like that in poly really, i was discussing it with Casey today. Haha.



Then again like, if God somehow conspired to chuck me in SA before poly or whatever, the Pris way, I really doubt i would have joined dance? Cause dance was something i only got into after entering Poly. Yeah.


AND ITS NOT LIKE I DON'T LIKE WHERE I AM ANYWHERE CAUSE OF ALL YOU AWESOME PEOPLE IN MY LIFE.



Keenan. Marv. Josh. Mel. Genny. Bev. Sonia. Sam. Pris. Rachel. Denise. Amandaaaa. Adin. Li. Seth. Larris! Jabez! Seniors, Juniors, and everyone!


(:


But hey...idk. Lol.



OKAY SO YESTERDAY WAS PRETTY DAMN AMAZING KTHANKS. But i'm lazy to digress on how the little kids kinda...owned everyone, how I had to beg the ticketing people to let me in cause Celine ran away with my ticket (granted, i was like 20 minutes late for our meeting ._.), how CHARMAINE WAS PRETTY DAMN AWESOME LAST NIGHT.


I mean. Damn girl. Just damn. I can't touch you you were so hot last night. Lol. And whoaaaaaa (:




HAHAHA IDK IM HIGGGGH.

Charmaine's friends are. Awesome. Spoon and Wenx and Chilung and whoever else i met were pretty damn cool. Especially Chilung who picked me out of the crowd when i was like just randomly stoning. Haha.


Thou shalt break social silences whenever i experience them. I swear. But yeah we got over that pretty quick (:




AND LIKE PRIS WAS THAR. And being socialite Pris. Geeze. Haha. You know. Now I know what its like when i drag people all around saying hi to other people. Its not that great a feeling idk ._.

I AM SORRY EVERYONE I HAVE PUT THROUGH THAT IN THE PAST. OKAY.


But yeah being social kinda fails without a phone. Yisin left right after. I'm alone. No phone. Millions of people. I'm on top floor. Pris is on first floor. Charmaine is...idk lol. Celine...*wince*


AND I CHIONG DOWN TO FIRST FLOOR ANYWAY CAUSE I'M LIKE OPTISMISTIC LIKE THAT.


Yup. Haha.


I think that the biggest thing I took away from the night, besides the epic routines, the snazze of it all, the school spirit going all around, and the awesome mixes, was the last routine at the very back(:



The RP breakers had just finished their stuff, and I'm just sitting there wondering whats next in the darkness.


And suddenly this huge booming voice goes:

Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable.

He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength.

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.


And then they dedicated the very last dance of the night to God, using gospel songs :D



: DDDDD


Now THAT'S outreach, mmkay? I mean, like whoa! ESPLANADE FREAKING ESPLANADE. Wooooooo!!!


I think I kinda. Know where I want to be. Lol. BUT FIRST I NEED TO GET BACK INTO DETENTION AND OTHER STUFF KAY.



Plus the verse itself helped me greatly today, when I was slugging it out once getting home from rapture doing Advertising and Media Management final presentations, 12am-ish onwards till like 3, where i dozed, woke at 4+, panicked, etc, slugged through and in school till MM, and that hectic mad hour after printing everything and doing a full throttle sprint from print room to Block 56 and up 6 flights of stairs to reach like 20 secs before i'd be late for Advert Final Presentation and end up giving like 4 other people zero for everything.



I never got those prints out anyway. Stupid printing shop.


BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER CAUSE WE LIKE. ACED THE FINAL PRESENTATION YO. BOTH OF THEM. HAHA. THANK YOU GODDDDDD.


:DDDDD




Rawr. I'm not sure how it happened, but we had everything at our fingertips when we needed to, graders liked our stuff, we had inspired answers to questions posed. And :D


And the glory goes to You, God (: I know where my strengths lie, and its certainly not bloody finance, or advertising...but hey You put everything together for me, and used me, and used my groupmates even though dear Marvin still doesn't believe in You. Lol.



This is a shoutout to all my groupmates today, Marvin, Casey, Genny, Melodie :D :D :D


ITS OVER YO. ITS FINALLY OVER. HAHA. ALL THAT SPAZZING, ALL THOSE TEARS, DRAMA, LOTS OF STUPID PRINTING MONEY SPENT, 48 HOUR SLEEPNESS NIGHTS, RUNS TO SUBMIT AT THE LAST SECOND.


AND ITS NOT JUST OVER BUT ITS OVER AND WE ACED ALL THAT SHIT. HAHA. WE RULLLEEEE.



Marv: Dude. Seriously. Haha. You rib me so often on certain stuff, and everyone else, and all that, but you're a huge amazing force when we're getting down to it. Haha. Plus everything. Thank you so much for crazy ideas. And reports. And grumping. And being an annoying githead. HAHA. And common sense, and much great general levity. And WRITING THAT KICKASS 16 - PART TV SCRIPT YO MM IS IN THE BAAAAG. HAHA. Lol. OKAY WOW TIME HAHA.


Casey: Dude. Shine Through is all you. MM Print Ad is all you. 4 Ps for our MM is all you. Slides design, THE MOON HAHA, and being dependable like crazy rocks man. Haha. Dude. You come up with the most amazing stuff that the rest of us will never think about in a million years. Whitening Cream would be Rediscover Your Youth or something if not for you. Haha. now lets rock TV! :D


GENNY: I LOVE YOU KAY. I MEAN IT. TIMES A MILLION. SALES PROMO VOUCHERS. BUS ADS OMG YOU DID ALMOST THE WHOLE THING ON YOUR OWN. That whole reporttttt you guys worked on. And the slides gosh! Genny! We'd be nowhere near the A without you! :D

Plus hey being reliable rocks. Alright. Its like Marv and I are subject to random bouts of..idiocy, but you're always like, there. ALWAYS. Hey people don't laugh k. Reliability you will appreciate muchly come projects, and knowing this is someone who will NEVER go MIA. I love you girl (:


MELODIEE: HAHA THIS SHOULD BE FUN :D Okay. Haha. Mel you rock. Everything. Loving God so much, coming down hard on me when im being retarded, which happens like...a lot, and stuff. Hey. Someone has to be the crazy ass order people around and fire and brimstone person right. And we've kinda established that I'm incapable of doing that so hey! Haha. Plus we'd kinda have no photo shoot without you...OH YOUR MUM ROCKS. HAHA. THANK FOR ME AGAIN KAYYY. :D



And we all rocked our socks off for presentations. I think we all know how well we did. I'm lazy to give a play-by-play. Haha. :D




I love this group. Okay. Its like, we're dysfunctional? We have so much retardedness flinging around, but somehow we still get the job done cause somehow we connect, and we're all happy with each other at the end when we somehow pull winning aces out of our asses. Haha. Funness is fun :D

Rahhh. Lol. OKAY. NOW THERES JUST TV AND NEWSWRITING TO KICK BUTT AT AND STUFF.


Or whatever God. Its in your hands. Like always. I know at the start of the week, I had no idea what was going on, and it was quite bad, and too much stuff to juggle, and i basically gave everything over to you. And look how it turned out!!!






So now that i have a bit of time on my hands, (!!!!)

I want to help my juniors. Like yeah. I've been crazy guilty the past few weeks for not being there when my juniors could use a hand, and NOW THEY HAVE MARKETING TEST NEXT WEDNESDAY AND I WANT TO HELP.

Plus it'll help me too lol, seeing that i have advert exam to worry about(:


SO BEV WHEN CAN WE GET TOGETHER AND STUDY. OR SOMETHING. AHA.


Or i could just ask you on msn. Lol.


Also, er. Bellejoy is evil. It has been established.




OKAY OFF TO GUILT-FREE PLEASURE DERIVED FROM SLACKING NIGHT.



GOODBYE TILL SOON KAY. HAHA.

:DDDD

Honouring Keenan

Tags. Haha Ah wellll

1. The person who last tagged you is:

Keenan. I think. Lol.

2. Your relationship with him/her is:

Churchmate, lifesaver, pretty much the only guy willing to put up entirely with all my crap. Lol. Guy. Not girls. Girls is another story...BUT LETS NOT GO THERE

3. Your five impression of him/her:

Whacked out, crazy, unafraid to come down hard, generous with time AND everything else, so much love.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:

Lol? Its not so much one thing, but a whole huge cumulation of things, like helping me so much for all my advert when ever i need photoshop/a place to stayover/someone to talk to etc.

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:

Nrrk.

6.If he/she become your lover, you will:

No.

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:

Fail. You fail so hard. I swear. Did you ever think about guys doing this tag? I mean girls to guys yes, but all you really wanted to see was girl on girl action, wasn't it. Jeez

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:

Sigh. Heavily. For the rest of my life.

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:

Cause..he's taking HSM hate to a new level? HAHA.

Maybe being the AntiChrist. Lol. Its hard to think of something that i couldn't forgive..

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:

Pay him back and do in equal share and more everything he's done for me.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:

Whoohoooo!

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?:

<_<>_> ._> :blink:

13. The characteristics you love about yourself are:

Er. No. I refuse to get drawn into thinking about things I like about me. Sheesh. All glory to God, mmkay.

14. On the contrary, the characteristics you hate a

bout yourself are:

Unable to say no. Lack of self-restraint. Flaring up at parents. Being so forgetful, and bad at managing money. And being a manager in general. I'm such a one-track-mind person...

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:

Jesus. More and more like Him each day please :D

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:

Love you too, lets hang out one day when I can pay for everything for you that day cause I appreciate you back so much and for bailing me out so much, just wait when I'm in the clear (:

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wished to know how they feel about you

Sigh.

1. CHARMAINE

2. CHARLENE
3. HANNAH
4. MELODI
5. JOSH SIMON

6. BEVERLY

7. PRIS

8. MATT

9. ADIN

10. Someone who doesn't like me. I mean, whats the point of asking so many people who you know are clearly going to write raving reviews of their friend..

Then again that's the ego surfacing again. HAHA



18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?

*snort*

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
..
Definitely female.

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

This should be fun

22. What is no.2 studying?

SAJC AND THE BIBLE

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
Not since forever. The girl actually IGNORED ME THE LAST TIME I WAS YELLING BYE HANNAH BYE HANNAH BYE HANNAH at the hawker. I just gave up after that. HAHA

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?


Good question

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?

Lol.

26. Will you woo no.3?

LOL

27. How about no.5?

No. Again.

28. Is no.4 single?

Yesssss. Unless scandal with yissinnnn counnnts. KIDDING. HAHA.

29. What is the surname of no.5?

.....
....

Some indian thing. I give up.

30. What hobbies does number 4 have?

Hockey hockey!! (:

31. Do no.5 and 9 get along well?

HAHA YES

32. Where is no.2 studying?


SAJCCC

33. Talk something casually about no.1:


GET WELL SOON LOVE YOU GIRL

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?

Should i?

35. Where does no.9 live at?

Ang Mo Kio! Where you'd never expect to find an Ang Mo!








Okay that was bad.



36. What colour does no.4 like?

...Pink? What. I'm hedging my bets.

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?

No. Its such a waste. I think they'd hit it off well.

38. Does no.7 like no.2?

No idea who each other are. Then again, both have been/are in SAJC, both are cell leaders to sec school girls, and try so hard to keep me in line. Haha. They should!

39. How do you get to know no.2?

FUEL UP. THEN RANDOM INVITE TO SOME GIRL'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION WHO I'VE NEVER MET

40. Does no.1 have any pets?

JAAZZZZZZ

41. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?

She has stalkerrrsssss.



Then again so do most girls i know. Is it just me. *winces*

Exhausted

So today I'm going to blog about God.

But first, the 30 sec kneel down prayer revolution :D

I was gonna post a picture, but blogger images seems to be down so ah well. Anyway:

http://www.30kd.org/


This is their site. I'll give you a rundown. Its a school movement started (in Africa?) where Christian Students sink down on their knees in public in their schools for 30 secs to pray for them. In the classrooms, in the corridors, on the basketball court just before a game, at the school gates, anywhere at all. Anywhere is fair game, and a short 30 sec prayer to the Lord for intercession, revival and change follows.




I'm doing it. I don't care if anyone else is or isn't. But I am. I got off the bus today for school and knelt at the tables at the Student Plaza to pray, i was terrified beforehand, and was hyping myself up to do it all the way on the bus, but the moment it was done I wanted to do it again. And again and again. Like every few metres: D


But then i'd never get to class on time so...


So I managed to do it once today. 30 seconds of prayer. Public prayer. Prayer where I'm putting myself out there for God. And if my friends ask me what im doing, and they're Christian, opportunity to spread the movement! And if they're not Christian, its reach out time!

:D



And I'm doing this because I believe that prayer can and WILL make an impact. Prayer is like fuel. And its our job to spread it and slosh it around. And keep pouring it out. And its God that lights the match for revival :D


This was taken from the message from Pastor Daniel at Ngee Ann Poly on Tuesday at the Poly Day of Prayer, where people from all the different polys came down to Ngee Ann, who hosted it, to pray for their schools.



And finally I understand the importance of prayer. I used to doubt a little before, I mean like, sure prayers have an effect, but I didn't know how lol. And now I know. The fuel thing. Its the laying of the groundwork for God to move mightily!


And I will stand up and lay it, dammit, haha :D





Poly Day Of Prayer. Was so good(: Lots of COOS people were there haha, Pastor Josh and Pastor Jen too! The turnout was kinda..just nice? Haha, like the LT was filled just enough with space to move around a bit. But considering how many people each poly has in it...

Wait for next year. Its gonnnaaaa be A BLAST. :D


I mean, besides the awesome worship, and the prayer, and the message etc, I personally gained something from that that I hoped others did too.


I was able to worship alongside people that usually see me like more...restrained? in school, and vice versa. I mean not that i'm less crazy in school, but its a bit different. Like I don't open myself up to vulnerability the way I do in church, to worship God. Yeah. And it was interesting how I was trying to break out of that in a semi "school" setting, specially praising God alongside Tab.


Cause usually we're a bit "act cool", in general, and i think standing next to each other watching each other pour out their passion and love for God blessed us greatly, both as individuals and as brother/sister in Christ.

:D


And that's how it should be among all Christians in school/class! Unafraid to proclaim their fervor for God!

But yeah(:


Also I got 1 of the 3 breakthroughs I was looking for since I started the Daniel Fast. Haha. Yayish. God is good :D


The Daniel Fast...has been interesting to say the least, pondering what i can and cannot eat, and mulling over the grey areas of things such as milk, soya bean drinks, eggs, etc.

Because technically I'm supposed to be hitting veggies and water? Haha.


Up to what I want to achieve in and honour God with, I guess. (:



Yuppp. But its been cool. Haha. And I just know God has greater things in store for me with the undertaking of this fast, so its all worth it and I'm still glad, even if I get pissed off at Ngee Ann's Canteens super veggietarian-unfriendliness.



Lol. Ok ok ok. Work time. Lotish to do. Etc. Yawn. Haha. Later and see you tmr after I've done the kneeling 30 second thing AT LEAST TWICE. :D



WILL YOU JOIN ME, WHETHER YOU'RE IN MY SCHOOL OR NOT

ITS POOL PARTY TIME

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Ponder

Looking at people's blogs like Hannah, Keenan, Mel and so forth, I am envious.



That assuredness and closeness and paying of attention to God's call, and that love and faith and grace that is shining through so evidently in their lives.



And the willingness to pursue it.


While I'm over here talking about wanting to grow closer to God and all, but still messing around with things like Pool Parties.


Which is cool and all, but increasingly it is being made clear to me that this isn't where I'm supposed to be.

And I have so much more to learn. Maturing in the faith and all. The thorny soil sums me up so aptly. I want to grow in You so much Lord, but look at all these other things I'm paying attention to instead of you. Not because I don't want to, but because they're choking me );


And all I have to do is quit. Walk away.


If only if it was as simple as that. I love SU. I really do. I can see so much good work I can do here for SU, and for the student body. And I love my team. And I'm not just about to cut and run. I refuse to be a failure.


I still effing want to make the pool party a success. I have huge dreams for Halloween. I want to be a part of FOC. I want to make Ngee Ann a damn bloody fun and happening place and I want to be at the forefront of that push, the revamping of SU.


I. I. I. I. I. All me. They're great goals, but where is God in this.


Asking me to quit SU


There. I said it. Its out in the open.


My crowning achievement in my years here, and it hasn't even really started yet.

And about a month ago at EverGlow God nudged me to quit it.

And I didn't understand why, not really.


And its like, I go "God, I can handle it, I can try. I can juggle"

And He goes "no you can't, let me show you why you can't"

Me "But I fit in here"

Him "No you don't, you fit in exactly here, right here, worshipping me"

Me "Its true"

Me "Well I can't quit now. People and things are depending on me. I can't just cut and run. Ok what about if I don't run next year. Just let me serve out my responsibilities"


Him "Ok sure, if you feel happy about it. But look at all the things you're missing out on, and I'm going to keep showing them to you, through your friends, through everything"




And it has been happening. Bumped into Joshua that day, who gave up SU so to commit more to CF, and now is heavily involved in organizing Poly Day Of Prayer, which is going to be awesome and such a huge blessing. Keenan is doing cell outreach, and growing closer to God and other people in Christ, affirmations and the like. Hannah. Yisin. People who have one less thing to distract them from their pursuit of God.


And their lives are so much more blessed by it.



Its gotten to the point where I'm unwilling to go to God in prayer partially because I know what he wants me to do.


I think im gonna go pray now. And cry. Newswriting and MM can wait.

I cannot believe I am doing this

I was going to get away with not blogging for awhile. And wallow in self-pity. And try not to screw up, and screw everyone depending on me for everything.


And maybe blog 1341234123423 months later after my birthday when im actually clear of all my commitments.



And here I am doing my first ever tagpost.

._.


No seriously, I have all my life managed to avoid these, in email, friendster, and blogs.


Bah Charmaine -.-

I find it freaky that 2 days ago I saw this on Renu's blog and lol'ing and thinking I'd never get hit by it.




Ah well.


A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- Uuhhh. But like my lover would never betray me. I am that good.

:D

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- Pretty much I'd want to fly. And sometimes I wonder how it would be if Anna was back in my life again. Clean slate, no idiotic mistakes, no nothing. Yeah. Would be pretty awesome, the retarded stuff we'd come up with.

And I want my dog back.

#3. What will your dream wedding to be like?
- Isn't this one of those girl questions. I don't think about weddings. Give me a pool, food, and enough cake to throw in people's faces and i'm all good.

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
- "Not so much confused as scared."

I know where I'm going lol. And I know pretty much God will cover all the bases for me. Still pretty damn terrified about the short term future though. Pool party cannot screw up. Grades cannot screw up. Life cannot screw up. gg):

#5. What’s your ideal lover like?
- I lol'd at Charmaine's answer. Hmm. Daring. Willing to go out there. Spontaneous. Very spontaneous. Spontaneous to the point of "hey wanna go jump in that lake *pushes you in* kinda spontaneous. I like being surprised, it makes a change from me always being the random one. Yeah. Intelligent, but still dumb enough to make me smile.

Yes, I have a secret fetish for closet bimbos. Only closet. Jeez. Okay maybe not closet. I confess. I like hanging out with crazy airheaded "omg lets be dumb now" people. But only to a point lol.

Awesome with kids. Athletic enough to do said crazy things. Crazy things include dancing. But yeah i think i'm spending a disturbing amount of time on this answer so NEXT PLEASE .

#6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Have you tried doing only one of the above with someone? It sucks.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- I'm never going to get to the point where I'm crazily off my senses enough to sign away my future to someone that doesn't want me back and doesn't care for me the same way back, and all for a self-perceived future with what I think that person is without even really knowing her.

- Been there, done that.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Deal. Move on. Its not as if I do anything about people I happen to like that aren't attached..

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
- Gee let me think now. Lol. Much stress about letting everyone including myself down. Everyone including NPSU and 200 freshmen. Etc. Not giving as much time to God, and listening to a clear call regarding SU as i should be. Parents. The usual.

- Why is there a question like this without a "anything that has made you happy?" part? D= Random hilarity has been ensuing in the past few days as well..

#10. Is being tagged fun?
- Er. Fine. I like being appreciated and remembered that way. Haha. I mean, its not something i'd ask for excessively, because that's just horrible attention-whoring, but who says I'll say no :D

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
- Not an editor, not a radio person, not in film, not in tv, god no not in advertising.
Yes, what am I doing in Mass Comm right. Lol. Hopefully just out of Hillsong. Wiser. Still random, still retarded. Still happy. So much more closer to God (: Serving hopefully, and being obedient and doing awesome works in His Name. Dating or almost married. Still cool.

Or I could be dead. Lol.

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
-God,..and here we go: Bev, Keenan, Charmaine, Charlene. Big four. Haha. And coming right behind them are a plethora of people I appreciate greatly in my life, and who I can't bear to rank one over another. Heh. Josh, Adin, Pris, Melissa, Melodi, Melodie, Shereen, Sheereen, Rae, Lala, Sharyl, Polly, Shermaine, Rachel, Hannah, Gerald and whole Detention Bunch, Matt and general that class bunch, Enna, Bellejoy and rest of cell, Dinner Group, and everyone :D

(:

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
- Someone im never ever really going to be ever tired of, and who's dysfunctions i can tolerate. Funny, amazingly gorgeous, deep, sensitive, still stupid but in a endearing way, i'd trust her with my life. I've already trusted her with my hair, so..

-Also, thank God she picked up dance. Lol.

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
- Stupid Charmaine, go with the darnned question criterias. Lol. Uhhhhh. Now? Definitely rich. What! I'm single anyway, and I don't have an undying urge currently to marry anyone i know, so why not?!

#15. What’s the first thing you do every morning?
- "Wish I was still asleep" Then wish I could fly. And wish I had money to throw around, and friends in the next bunk/room/next door. Then I fulfill the first wish.

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- The Relationship? The whole point is to try, right?

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- I'd fall in love with someone else.

#18. What type of friends do you like?
- Pretty much the criteria for lover whatever. Always having my back. There for me, supporting me, but still having their own opinions, and having the intelligence to realise that different opinions don't always have to get in the way of friendship. True friendship is transcending all of that, and still being tight(:

There for me generally means jumping in a lake when I want to jump in a lake. Also those that aren't afraid to express themselves, those who not only are there for me, but I can be there for :D


#19. What type of friends do you dislike?
- People who judge. People who judge without knowing much at all. People who are crass, and think that sex jokes are God's gift to mankind, cause they're not. People overly obsessed with getting drunk. People who think THEY are God's gift to mankind, and that gift means putting down everyone who isn't. People who marginalize other people. Yeah pretty much. I HATE people when they start judging others, and then making jokes about it. This includes jokes about lecturers. They don't deserve that crap.

Tagged by:
Charmaine (:



OH I FORGOT TO TAG 8 PEOPLE. ER:

1. KEENAN
2. CHARLENE
3. PRIS
4. BEV
5. ADIN
6. MATT
7. HANNAHHH
8. Melodi. Haha.


Er. Sorry Matt, I know you've answered so many questions on your blog already but yeah lol. I'd put josh there but he never reads my blog so..

HANNAH IF YOU'RE DOING IT UNLOCK BLOG I CAN'T READ WHATS THE POINT.

K GNITE

GG Hair

Posting this at top of entry instead of bottom so people actually see it:


1) I miss Alison. The dog. Not the girl, you douchebags. Actually kinda too BUT THAT'S BESIDE THE POINT.

2) I miss dancesports. Badly. Like badly beyond badly.

3) I miss hockey too.
I picked up Charlene's hockey stick that day and couldn't put it down. And I always feel really guilty whenever I see Thiru/Jen/Azi/Mas/anyone else around school with a stick. But again, I don't have the time. Sigh. I miss you guys and the playing ):


4) I'm super sorry for ignoring anyone from my past.
I saw a Mass Email from Pei Lin the other day. About netball. And i was like "whoa cool". And then struck by guilt that occasionally when i see her, I don't think she recognizes me and don't say hi because I have absolutely no idea what to say :s

I wasn't the best have-it-together-person in secondary school, after all. And kind of an arrogant jerkbag in my first sem here. Heck, ask my marketing group. Bev knows. Haha. I guess that factors in why I'm lost for words whenever I bump into someone else from my past? I don't know what they'll make of me now and all that. :/

For example I generally am somewhat unsure of how to interact with people like Sin Ee and Jamie. People who've generally seen me change drastically at least 3 times. Gah ._.


But yes I still miss them. And I'm sorry for not saying hi and stuff. And I intend to change that. This is a shoutout to Pei Lin, Wilson, Peter, Shauna, and anyone else. K. I'm trying that whole "if you smile first, don't worry, they'll smile back" thing. At least I hope so. Haha.

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Back to today's topic..


Haircut = epic failure.


Mostly due down to my inability to know what i want to do and Charmaine's lack of fringe expertise. Lol.


I think we might have done okay if we just stopped pushing our luck after the back..


WELL AMBASSADORS ARE YOU HAPPY NOW. HAHA.



Gotta start practicing the wax again. Sigh. Lol.


I also need to find people to share my free pizza card with me. God knows I need the cash. Sheesh.



I realised on the taxi home that the taxi fare kinda nullified any monetary advantage I got getting a friend to cut for me.

But its okay. The awesome company and time spent hanging out was more then worth it eh. And Jazz is hilarious. Haha. Charmaine is also amazing at KI. Like whoa. Respect. :D


Girls who can hold their own in a deep argument and still look good while doing it AND still be a hopeless bimbo after that are win. Alright.




I just know i'm going to get shot down for that line...


ick my fingers still smell of jazz drool. ):





ALRIGHT LOTSA TO DO. LATER

Oh hello

Woke up at 7, slept till 8, got a shower and breakfast and good Quiet Time.


God is good. :D




And advert is clear! A big shoutout to all my groupmembers, I mean, I seriously enjoyed working with every single one of you along the course of this whole thing. I don't know, I just really enjoy our dynamic. Haha. Casey Genny Mel and Marvin. Its loads of fun, and we still get work done. Heh.



Rawr. Fairfield carnival later. This should be a laugh.





SCHOOL IS MAKING ME CUT MY HAIR HELP CHARMAINE NEED THE HAIRCUT NOW