I have to live with this

Dear God,

I need You to come, please. Come and help me get through the fact that I gave up the love of my life to You. Then what.

I've gotten so much advice over the past few days that its starting to bounce off me. How now.

I miss you.

Ugh

I'm sorta kinda feeling better now that I have a goal.

I kinda still don't want to be though.