SSM Second Night Notes
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As you study creation, you will find God there!
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Matt 19:18
Honour your father and mother, love your neighbour as yourselves!
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John 15
Love one another, just as I have Loved you! (Jesus)
--> Second level of love!
First level love as self, second level love as Jesus did!
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Eph 3:17-21!
And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God (:
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Songs Of Solomon
---> Full time choir to follow around those in love lol.
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The kingdom has a high value for passion!
The disciples knew servant-hood!
But the kingdom has a high value for passion! (Like Mary who poured perfume on Jesus' feet)
Maybe we have focused too much on obedience and starved people from passion, from love!
From experiencing love and doing this out of the passion of love!
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You think that these great missionaries are sacrificing things for God!
But if you're in love, it doesn't matter! It is completely driven by passion!
From the outside it can look like sacrifice, but from the inside its driven by passion!
Its not hard, its easy, there's nothing you'd rather do!
Sometimes the church, enslaved by discipline, looks at these guys and are like "wow they make great sacrifices!"
But its not like that, you get in the centre of their world, and its really easy, nothing matters, nothing is hard!
The greatest value is not discipline, its passion, its love!
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Motorbikes 30 miles in the rain and cold. Its not sacrifice, its love, its completely worth it. That's love (:
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We always tell each other in the church "You have to read the Bible, you have to pray, you have to listen to God, and if you don't, BAD THINGS WILL HAPPEN TO YOU"
But that shouldn't be the case! That's not the purpose of the gospel! Its about love!
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"You really have to ride your motorbike to see your girlfriend!"
"No no, anything but that!"
Lol.
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Kris doesn't do this for money! He doesn't do conferences for money! He doesn't need it! He hates planes, he hates travel, he hates flights, and the only reason why they do this is because they love us, they love people (:
Haha. Love (:
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I want to be so in love with Jesus that everything flows out naturally and I'm here because I love this guy and I like these people! (:
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Hebrews 11: 11-12!
Abraham vs Sarah.
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Men learn to save your marriages
"I, was wrong."
Maturity is learning to say "I was wrong" the moment you see it!
Not days later!
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Ladies learn to save your marriages
"I forgive you"
Don't tell us why you knew we were wrong! Its rubbing it in, we don't want to talk about it! It took us a long time to get here!
Lol.
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Love rewrites your history!
You think you have a terrible past, but God rewrites your story, and suddenly later everyone wants to be you!
Haha well.
Because He loves you. And when God loves you, your history looks like His.
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Oh my gosh Kris's grandfather loved him his whole life (:
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If Kris' grandfather, who never knew God, knew how to love Kris, how much more will your Father in heaven love you!
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You cannot exaggerate the love of God! The moment you ask it, or tell it, its bigger. Than you ever could think it was.
His love can be experienced, but not explained!
And if you knew that God loved you, you can never again doubt that your life has a purpose.
And whatever bad thing that has happened to you, He didn't do it.
He loves you too much.
<3
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009
SSM First Night!
SSM First Night!
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When you accept Jesus you enter full-time ministry! You may be pretty bad at it but you're in it! --> Kris
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When our theology moves towards our reality, it changes our destiny!
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When we realise that our Father, really is God, like in charge of the universe, and he says we are royalty?
Whoa.
Dude. We're all royal.
God doesn't use little people! He doesn't have any!
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The heavens still spin! God is still working!
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Humans are the only creations made after God's image.
Don't ever talk bad or little about yourself because when you do that, you dishonor the Creator who made you!
You're amazing.
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God gave us a sex drive!
That means we want to have sex with somebody!
But what happens is that in many churches we pretend it doesn't exist! We pretend that this isn't happening to our young people!
And we wonder why we're losing our young people.
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So why does God give us a sex drive way before we're supposed to have sex!
"Far be it from me that I give to God something that cost me nothing." --> David.
God wants us to give our partner something that cost us a ton, blood, sweat and tears to keep!
So yeah (:
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Luke 22:19! (Luke 22: 14-20)
And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying 'This is my body which is given to you, do this is remembrance of me.'
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Romans something
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Hebrews 9:16
Where a covenant is...
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The Old Testament is an old covenant!
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God created you because he likes you! If he didn't, He'd get rid of you a long time ago.
God had a world without you, and he didn't like it! That's why he created you! He likes you!
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Moses vs People
Moses: God wants a relationship with you, People!
People: "God scares us, you tell us what God says, Moses, but don't let us talk to Him, lest we die :o
Rules vs Relationship! People chose rules! God gave them HUNDREDS OF RULES.
And its impossible to keep all those rules!
That's what the new covenant is for, to recreate the relationship with God! Jesus!
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A covenant means: A promise made until death.
Its serious business.
You would use to cut an animal in half and walk through its blood to commit to that, in public. Signify that if someone breaks it, he has to die! A promise made unto death.
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Now God made a covenant with his people, about rules! You wanna be righteous on your own? Keep all these rules.
But its not possible! So God wants to change the covenant. And to do that, He has to die! A covenant made unto death!
A new covenant makes the old obsolete!
Hebrews 8:10-13
It is fulfilled, it passes away!
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Matt Chap 5:--> Jesus says, you have heard it, love your friends, hate your enemies! But I say now love your enemy, and pray for him!
Where the people hear to hate their enemies!
From God! God said go into Israel and kill everybody, don't let anyone get away!
Saul loses his kingship because he EXTENDED MERCY to a king that God did not extend mercy to!
Psl 129:31
Joshua 11: 20
David killed everyone who didn't love God!
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There's a big difference between the old covenant and the new covenant!
David killed, showed no mercy, to people who did not know what they were doing!
Paul said show mercy to those who do not know what they were doing!
So did Stephen as he was dying! Show mercy!
There is a difference!
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Plenty of people try to bring the old covenant into the new covenant! This is wrong!
Many people in America say that at 9/11, it was God judging America for sin!
Anytime something bad happens in America, people say its God judging America!
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Mercy is not Justice!
Mercy does not feel good! Pastor Derek judging that A can go free for murder because A's father used to play golf with Pastor Derek, that's mercy!
But it won't feel good!
Now bring Jesus into it! Because Jesus is sinless, and does not deserve to die, when he dies for your sin, Justice is fulfilled!
When Jesus dies, Justice is fulfilled, and now God can release Mercy! Without being crooked!
See, God doesn't need to punish anyone anymore! He doesn't owe anybody anything! He can let anybody off that He wants to because His son died for Justice, now he can release Mercy!
God doesn't punish anyone nowadays for bad things! He doesn't have to! Don't make a misunderstanding of the new covenant!
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Punishment is not the same as Discipline k. Discipline is in love.
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Don't try to administer justice against people/for God! You are paying twice for what God has already done!
"America needs to be judged!" Well, so do you!
Shut up lol.
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Jesus said to the Pharisees "
Violent men take the kingdom by force! The law said "stay out". The prophets say "You didn't keep all the laws, you can't come in!"
And Jesus took his cross as a Battering Ram and smashed our way in!
Trojan Hose of Jesus Christ! You are hidden in Christ! You snuck in through the grace of Jesus Christ!
And now that you're in, you think everyone else outside should be punished!
....
....
"America deserves judgement! And we need to change, or America is going to be judged by God!"
Blahblahblah materialism blahblahblah.
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There's a difference between sowing and reaping and judgement!
"Its semantics"
Its not semantics.
Judgement means to condemn, to consider, to pass judgement, etc
Judgement means God makes you pay for what you did wrong!
Sowing and Reaping is the natural response of what you do! You make a decision, and you reap what you sow! It has nothing to do with God needing to actively punish you! You do it to yourself!
God is trying to get us to not reap what we sow! Thats called grace. He stood between our sowing and reaping, put up the wall of the cross, to keep us getting what we deserve!
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Housing prices going up by 20%
Employee's wages are only going up by 3%
At some point, the employees will not have money to buy houses!
Banks make money when they sell money!
So instead of giving 80% loans, they give 90% loans!
And people only need to pay 10% of their house up front!
So people can buy their houses again which will be worth more money anyway, so the money comes back!
But the money doesn't flatten out, because people who sell houses, they want to make money! So they keep trying to sell higher, and higher!
So the bank needs money, so it gives 100% loans to sell money!
And people can buy houses again!
But people are not invested in their houses anymore! 0%!
And at some point people start giving their houses back to the bank!
This equals housing crisis.
Now if you were 20% invested in your house, you would hang onto your money, money you have earned through sweat and hard work!
But now that you're not, you're just like "I'll give the bank the house back."
Banks go bust, insurance companies go broke...
"Its the insurance companies' fault"
"Its the politicians' fault"
"Its George Bush's fault"
"Its God's fault"
That's not the judgement of God, that's the spirit of stupid!
No wonder people don't want to be Christians...
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Isaiah 61:2 "The spirit of the Lord is upon me to...." His inauguration speech in the temple!
When Jesus proclaims the passage of Isaiah, he left out the second part of the sentence, which had to do with Vengeance!
Because Jesus didn't come to judge the world, he came to save it!
So if Jesus didn't come to judge the world, why are you?
Are you a prophet of the Old Testament, or the New?
The prophets of old did not have the blood of Jesus!
Why are we telling people we need a Saviour when we already have one!
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The prophets didn't know about a Second Coming! They didn't know Jesus was going to come once as a Lamb and once as a Lion!
They thought Jesus was going to come and lay his Kingdom on earth at the very start!
And so very little Pharisees didn't accept Jesus as Saviour because He didn't fulfill ALL the requirements of the Scripture!
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There is a difference between the Last Days and the Last Day!
The Last Days are called great and glorious! The Last Day is great and terrible.
Why terrible! Because its horrible if you're not a believer! You are Judged!
Acts Chapter 2 --> This last day is when the Sun turns dark and the Moon turns to blood!
Did you know that when Jesus died, the Sun turned dark and the Moon turned to blood!
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Jesus was the exact reflection of the Father!
Like the Moon reflects the Sun!
And when the Sun turned dark, the Moon turns to blood! Omg Jesus died in blood.
And when that happened, the start of the Great and Glorious days arrived!
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Mercy is not getting what you deserve. Grace is getting what you don't deserve!
Not only Jesus is not giving you what you deserve, He is giving you what you don't deserve!
Not only is God not punishing you, He is giving you a great reward without you doing anything! How? He hid you in Christ!
Acts 17:30
2 Peter 3:17 -->Day of Judgement!
Jude verse 6--> Judgement of the Great Day
1 John 4:17--> Confidence for the Day of Judgement!
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If you start trying to judge people for what they deserve, you are trying to pull the Judgement Day into the great and glorious days!
And it is said that no mercy is to be given to those who shows no mercy.
And anytime you call for people to be judged, you are transported back to the old country where you're still a fugitive!
New Creation! Old has passed away, new as coming! Next Verse!--> Not counting their trespasses against them. --> Next Verse --> Ministry of reconciliation! --> Not counting their trespasses against them!
What is the Spirit of Elijah! What does Malachi say about it! In the new covenant, restoring the hearts of sons to fathers. Reconciling families!
If you moved the prophets in the old testament to the new testament, they would know they have a new job! From judging kings to reconciling families!
They have a new job description!
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What about Ananias and Saphira! God killed them for lying!
But are we dead for lying, in the church, every day? No!
If you show me repeated instances of this happening, but it was a one off!
If God wants to bring A & S home early because they are polluting the church, sure, He can do what He wants!
But he doesn't need to do it to fulfill judgement! He already settled that!
And look who they were talking to just before they died! Peter, the most famous liar in the Bible!
That's God's sense of humour.
And Peter lied before he was even saved lol. A & S died after they were saved. Big difference.
Haha well
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When you accept Jesus you enter full-time ministry! You may be pretty bad at it but you're in it! --> Kris
----------------------------------------------------
When our theology moves towards our reality, it changes our destiny!
----------------------------------------------------
When we realise that our Father, really is God, like in charge of the universe, and he says we are royalty?
Whoa.
Dude. We're all royal.
God doesn't use little people! He doesn't have any!
----------------------------------------------------
The heavens still spin! God is still working!
----------------------------------------------------
Humans are the only creations made after God's image.
Don't ever talk bad or little about yourself because when you do that, you dishonor the Creator who made you!
You're amazing.
----------------------------------------------------
God gave us a sex drive!
That means we want to have sex with somebody!
But what happens is that in many churches we pretend it doesn't exist! We pretend that this isn't happening to our young people!
And we wonder why we're losing our young people.
----------------------------------------------------
So why does God give us a sex drive way before we're supposed to have sex!
"Far be it from me that I give to God something that cost me nothing." --> David.
God wants us to give our partner something that cost us a ton, blood, sweat and tears to keep!
So yeah (:
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Luke 22:19! (Luke 22: 14-20)
And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying 'This is my body which is given to you, do this is remembrance of me.'
----------------------------------------------------
Romans something
..........
Hebrews 9:16
Where a covenant is...
---------------------------------------------------
The Old Testament is an old covenant!
----------------------------------------------------
God created you because he likes you! If he didn't, He'd get rid of you a long time ago.
God had a world without you, and he didn't like it! That's why he created you! He likes you!
----------------------------------------------------
Moses vs People
Moses: God wants a relationship with you, People!
People: "God scares us, you tell us what God says, Moses, but don't let us talk to Him, lest we die :o
Rules vs Relationship! People chose rules! God gave them HUNDREDS OF RULES.
And its impossible to keep all those rules!
That's what the new covenant is for, to recreate the relationship with God! Jesus!
----------------------------------------------------
A covenant means: A promise made until death.
Its serious business.
You would use to cut an animal in half and walk through its blood to commit to that, in public. Signify that if someone breaks it, he has to die! A promise made unto death.
----------------------------------------------------
Now God made a covenant with his people, about rules! You wanna be righteous on your own? Keep all these rules.
But its not possible! So God wants to change the covenant. And to do that, He has to die! A covenant made unto death!
A new covenant makes the old obsolete!
Hebrews 8:10-13
It is fulfilled, it passes away!
----------------------------------------------------
Matt Chap 5:--> Jesus says, you have heard it, love your friends, hate your enemies! But I say now love your enemy, and pray for him!
Where the people hear to hate their enemies!
From God! God said go into Israel and kill everybody, don't let anyone get away!
Saul loses his kingship because he EXTENDED MERCY to a king that God did not extend mercy to!
Psl 129:31
Joshua 11: 20
David killed everyone who didn't love God!
----------------------------------------------------
There's a big difference between the old covenant and the new covenant!
David killed, showed no mercy, to people who did not know what they were doing!
Paul said show mercy to those who do not know what they were doing!
So did Stephen as he was dying! Show mercy!
There is a difference!
----------------------------------------------------
Plenty of people try to bring the old covenant into the new covenant! This is wrong!
Many people in America say that at 9/11, it was God judging America for sin!
Anytime something bad happens in America, people say its God judging America!
----------------------------------------------------
Mercy is not Justice!
Mercy does not feel good! Pastor Derek judging that A can go free for murder because A's father used to play golf with Pastor Derek, that's mercy!
But it won't feel good!
Now bring Jesus into it! Because Jesus is sinless, and does not deserve to die, when he dies for your sin, Justice is fulfilled!
When Jesus dies, Justice is fulfilled, and now God can release Mercy! Without being crooked!
See, God doesn't need to punish anyone anymore! He doesn't owe anybody anything! He can let anybody off that He wants to because His son died for Justice, now he can release Mercy!
God doesn't punish anyone nowadays for bad things! He doesn't have to! Don't make a misunderstanding of the new covenant!
----------------------------------------------------
Punishment is not the same as Discipline k. Discipline is in love.
----------------------------------------------------
Don't try to administer justice against people/for God! You are paying twice for what God has already done!
"America needs to be judged!" Well, so do you!
Shut up lol.
----------------------------------------------------
Jesus said to the Pharisees "
Violent men take the kingdom by force! The law said "stay out". The prophets say "You didn't keep all the laws, you can't come in!"
And Jesus took his cross as a Battering Ram and smashed our way in!
Trojan Hose of Jesus Christ! You are hidden in Christ! You snuck in through the grace of Jesus Christ!
And now that you're in, you think everyone else outside should be punished!
....
....
"America deserves judgement! And we need to change, or America is going to be judged by God!"
Blahblahblah materialism blahblahblah.
----------------------------------------------------
There's a difference between sowing and reaping and judgement!
"Its semantics"
Its not semantics.
Judgement means to condemn, to consider, to pass judgement, etc
Judgement means God makes you pay for what you did wrong!
Sowing and Reaping is the natural response of what you do! You make a decision, and you reap what you sow! It has nothing to do with God needing to actively punish you! You do it to yourself!
God is trying to get us to not reap what we sow! Thats called grace. He stood between our sowing and reaping, put up the wall of the cross, to keep us getting what we deserve!
----------------------------------------------------
Housing prices going up by 20%
Employee's wages are only going up by 3%
At some point, the employees will not have money to buy houses!
Banks make money when they sell money!
So instead of giving 80% loans, they give 90% loans!
And people only need to pay 10% of their house up front!
So people can buy their houses again which will be worth more money anyway, so the money comes back!
But the money doesn't flatten out, because people who sell houses, they want to make money! So they keep trying to sell higher, and higher!
So the bank needs money, so it gives 100% loans to sell money!
And people can buy houses again!
But people are not invested in their houses anymore! 0%!
And at some point people start giving their houses back to the bank!
This equals housing crisis.
Now if you were 20% invested in your house, you would hang onto your money, money you have earned through sweat and hard work!
But now that you're not, you're just like "I'll give the bank the house back."
Banks go bust, insurance companies go broke...
"Its the insurance companies' fault"
"Its the politicians' fault"
"Its George Bush's fault"
"Its God's fault"
That's not the judgement of God, that's the spirit of stupid!
No wonder people don't want to be Christians...
----------------------------------------------------
Isaiah 61:2 "The spirit of the Lord is upon me to...." His inauguration speech in the temple!
When Jesus proclaims the passage of Isaiah, he left out the second part of the sentence, which had to do with Vengeance!
Because Jesus didn't come to judge the world, he came to save it!
So if Jesus didn't come to judge the world, why are you?
Are you a prophet of the Old Testament, or the New?
The prophets of old did not have the blood of Jesus!
Why are we telling people we need a Saviour when we already have one!
----------------------------------------------------
The prophets didn't know about a Second Coming! They didn't know Jesus was going to come once as a Lamb and once as a Lion!
They thought Jesus was going to come and lay his Kingdom on earth at the very start!
And so very little Pharisees didn't accept Jesus as Saviour because He didn't fulfill ALL the requirements of the Scripture!
----------------------------------------------------
There is a difference between the Last Days and the Last Day!
The Last Days are called great and glorious! The Last Day is great and terrible.
Why terrible! Because its horrible if you're not a believer! You are Judged!
Acts Chapter 2 --> This last day is when the Sun turns dark and the Moon turns to blood!
Did you know that when Jesus died, the Sun turned dark and the Moon turned to blood!
----------------------------------------------------
Jesus was the exact reflection of the Father!
Like the Moon reflects the Sun!
And when the Sun turned dark, the Moon turns to blood! Omg Jesus died in blood.
And when that happened, the start of the Great and Glorious days arrived!
----------------------------------------------------
Mercy is not getting what you deserve. Grace is getting what you don't deserve!
Not only Jesus is not giving you what you deserve, He is giving you what you don't deserve!
Not only is God not punishing you, He is giving you a great reward without you doing anything! How? He hid you in Christ!
Acts 17:30
2 Peter 3:17 -->Day of Judgement!
Jude verse 6--> Judgement of the Great Day
1 John 4:17--> Confidence for the Day of Judgement!
----------------------------------------------------
If you start trying to judge people for what they deserve, you are trying to pull the Judgement Day into the great and glorious days!
And it is said that no mercy is to be given to those who shows no mercy.
And anytime you call for people to be judged, you are transported back to the old country where you're still a fugitive!
New Creation! Old has passed away, new as coming! Next Verse!--> Not counting their trespasses against them. --> Next Verse --> Ministry of reconciliation! --> Not counting their trespasses against them!
What is the Spirit of Elijah! What does Malachi say about it! In the new covenant, restoring the hearts of sons to fathers. Reconciling families!
If you moved the prophets in the old testament to the new testament, they would know they have a new job! From judging kings to reconciling families!
They have a new job description!
----------------------------------------------------
What about Ananias and Saphira! God killed them for lying!
But are we dead for lying, in the church, every day? No!
If you show me repeated instances of this happening, but it was a one off!
If God wants to bring A & S home early because they are polluting the church, sure, He can do what He wants!
But he doesn't need to do it to fulfill judgement! He already settled that!
And look who they were talking to just before they died! Peter, the most famous liar in the Bible!
That's God's sense of humour.
And Peter lied before he was even saved lol. A & S died after they were saved. Big difference.
Haha well
Thursday, June 11, 2009
God is good (:
Q: God, how can I possibly make you change your mind by petitioning, like Abraham and Moses and Mary did? And if I can make you change your mind, what about your perfect plan and perfect will? Isn't that a contradiction?
A: My son, I do have a perfect plan. My perfect plan involves you interceding and changing my mind. I love you, and I'm cheering you on. I want you to intercede, to change my mind! That means you are ultimately following my will. I love you, I want you to drive.
:D
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Wow. That's one of the biggest answers to one of the biggest questions I've had all conference. I just simply asked God for that (: Also, coming from the book Unlocking Heaven by Kevin Dedmon, page 28,29
The answer to my question: Do I need to ask God's will over whoever I pray for? Like "God do you want Jason to be healed? Kathy? Your will be done!"
And the book clarified that it would not have been possible for Jesus to do that. The lady with the cloak. Jesus could not have possibly asked God first before it happened. Peter's shadow.
Also, the clarification that God is always healing, and wants to heal. Always. And its just up to us to release it. God doesn't go "I'll heal you, and you, and you, but ....not you"
HAHA! (:
So yes I don't have to ask first. Just go. You know what, I'm going to write down these questions and thank Kevin for supplying the answers through his book, it really is God moving. Yay. Haha. I'll still going to ask him about how to break the language barrier though! Or comment on it. Its soooo irritating when people speak only Chinese or worse, dialect. Haha. We really encountered problems with that over the past few days.
Random: I really love Tina. :D
Its so amazing how much she's grown over the past week! She is so different from the person I met on Good Friday! Completely and totally transformed. WOW! (: You are good, God.
About time I started journaling again. Hahahah yeah thank you Dad by your grace (:
So. Today was interesting, but very cool.I didn't heal anyone. And we met a few people, but nothing like the magnitude of yesterday, where we just went all out in joy and love and spam blessed love encountered healed people and everything!
On that note encountering God yesterday was so awesome. Gifts. Destinies. Encouragements. I'm going to Australia!!!!
:D
Awesome. So my heart's desire. Thank you GOD (:
AND AND today Nick the Bethel Intern came up to me and greatly encouraged me in the area of dance hiphop worship! Yay! I so needed to hear everything he said, he was so much sent from God! Telling me to just go for it, don't restrain anything, just turn it into something really cool, God loves it, and it can be used for intercession! YEAH! (:
Cause I've always had two problems before, though lately and especially this week I've been trying to bring it out more in worship but not really daring or knowing how:
1. I'm not sure if some stuff is allowed. Like intense butt-grooving stuff, what I'm good at...
2. I don't think I'm really good.
But today the whole creative session SO encouraged me, and now I know that whatever I express to God creatively is good! I don't have to worry about it being "perfect", I break that attitude off, because whatever God creates is good and we are made in His image :D
YAYYY. Tmr worship so looking forward to it. Hah. I went over to the Malaysian dudes Jarod and Michael and told them the same thing, will be dragging them to the floor tmr and wow watch out God this is for you :D
Haha. ANYWAY, Treasure Hunt today at Anchorpoint. I was tired. A bit sian. And vaguely annoyed with Gideon. And I was starting to strive! Which is bad. So I was just trying to enter into a position of rest in God again, yeah, and spent the rest of the day dwelling in it. Yeah (:
And God spoke to me while I had Angie's iPod playing in my ears, seeking Him in Subway. And seeking His love. Because ministry is supposed to be spillover love! I can't help but leak it.
And I was far from it so I knew I had to come back into God first before I could even do anything...
Then, God spoke to me, encountered me and told me He really loved me. And because He did, things to show His love for me, not just words, were coming my way. Gifts, people, blessings, tangible things, the way someone who genuinely loved someone would do, not just words. Yeah(:
And He understood the person that I am, and that I needed constant replenishment of love, not just memories, and maybe a bit more attention lavished on than other people, cause I have greater emotional needs, and He was so prepared to give me all of that. :D
And then He gave me a new name. Because honestly speaking, the name "Keann" was born out of a need to "act cool". To be cool, and liked by people. And while it has now turned into the name that symbolises the part when my life turned around and I was so blessed socially, and had so much fun, and so much more to life, and everything, and love, and so it is everything positive, God wants to give me a name with greater meaning.
Now "Qi En" means revealing grace, and so a great Christian name as well, but because it was in a period of my life where I endured so much hurt and pain and rejection and neglect, I associate it badly. I don't want to be called by it ever.
I mean, I'm sure "Saul" was a good name too, you know! But Paul needed to start over with a clean slate, and God gave him that with his name.
(:
And now I am "John". Because I am the disciple whom Jesus Loved. And it exemplifies the person that I am, how much more love and attention I might need from God than most people, and how He is so prepared to give me that.
Actually also from Tuesday I have "Samuel". When Theresa Dedmon prophetically anointed me with the words "Young Samuel". Yeah young Samuel, the young enthusiastic set apart for God boy that heard God's voice. Who grew up to be the fiery authoritative prophet that travelled all over the Promised Land, anointing David and Saul, and living in exciting and great times.
Wooooooo. :D
Haha. I shall need to study the stories and meaning of "Samuel" more, and "John", in order to fully take on their mantles and impartations. But yeah. Rawr. I take and receive what I understand now. Haha. YAY.
Thank you God! [:
So anyway, I rested today. Just kept right on resting. Dwelling in God's love. Haha. I mean, despite me having gotten all the treasure hunt clues for Holland V, I don't actually have to go there! God still loves me, I don't have to do it to fulfill anything or to seek approval. Everything has already been done, it is finished. This is just meant to be an outpouring of love, and how can I do that if I don't feel loved, and am not secure in it!
I mean to bear real fruit, not artificial man-made fruit from striving. :D
And because of that, now I have a greater understanding of rest! Yay. Haha. Thank you Dad! And Jesus and Holy Spirit. Raahhhhh. Hahahahah (:
Oh man I really need to set aside a time for journalling. Haha. Time is set back now and I gotta figure out the cell plan for Hearing God's Voice, in light of SSM teaching, and pray for it, do Medlaw? Yishe those questions scare me ><
Haha oh God. I love You. Yeah (:
YAY I JOURNALLED. (:
A: My son, I do have a perfect plan. My perfect plan involves you interceding and changing my mind. I love you, and I'm cheering you on. I want you to intercede, to change my mind! That means you are ultimately following my will. I love you, I want you to drive.
:D
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Wow. That's one of the biggest answers to one of the biggest questions I've had all conference. I just simply asked God for that (: Also, coming from the book Unlocking Heaven by Kevin Dedmon, page 28,29
The answer to my question: Do I need to ask God's will over whoever I pray for? Like "God do you want Jason to be healed? Kathy? Your will be done!"
And the book clarified that it would not have been possible for Jesus to do that. The lady with the cloak. Jesus could not have possibly asked God first before it happened. Peter's shadow.
Also, the clarification that God is always healing, and wants to heal. Always. And its just up to us to release it. God doesn't go "I'll heal you, and you, and you, but ....not you"
HAHA! (:
So yes I don't have to ask first. Just go. You know what, I'm going to write down these questions and thank Kevin for supplying the answers through his book, it really is God moving. Yay. Haha. I'll still going to ask him about how to break the language barrier though! Or comment on it. Its soooo irritating when people speak only Chinese or worse, dialect. Haha. We really encountered problems with that over the past few days.
Random: I really love Tina. :D
Its so amazing how much she's grown over the past week! She is so different from the person I met on Good Friday! Completely and totally transformed. WOW! (: You are good, God.
About time I started journaling again. Hahahah yeah thank you Dad by your grace (:
So. Today was interesting, but very cool.I didn't heal anyone. And we met a few people, but nothing like the magnitude of yesterday, where we just went all out in joy and love and spam blessed love encountered healed people and everything!
On that note encountering God yesterday was so awesome. Gifts. Destinies. Encouragements. I'm going to Australia!!!!
:D
Awesome. So my heart's desire. Thank you GOD (:
AND AND today Nick the Bethel Intern came up to me and greatly encouraged me in the area of dance hiphop worship! Yay! I so needed to hear everything he said, he was so much sent from God! Telling me to just go for it, don't restrain anything, just turn it into something really cool, God loves it, and it can be used for intercession! YEAH! (:
Cause I've always had two problems before, though lately and especially this week I've been trying to bring it out more in worship but not really daring or knowing how:
1. I'm not sure if some stuff is allowed. Like intense butt-grooving stuff, what I'm good at...
2. I don't think I'm really good.
But today the whole creative session SO encouraged me, and now I know that whatever I express to God creatively is good! I don't have to worry about it being "perfect", I break that attitude off, because whatever God creates is good and we are made in His image :D
YAYYY. Tmr worship so looking forward to it. Hah. I went over to the Malaysian dudes Jarod and Michael and told them the same thing, will be dragging them to the floor tmr and wow watch out God this is for you :D
Haha. ANYWAY, Treasure Hunt today at Anchorpoint. I was tired. A bit sian. And vaguely annoyed with Gideon. And I was starting to strive! Which is bad. So I was just trying to enter into a position of rest in God again, yeah, and spent the rest of the day dwelling in it. Yeah (:
And God spoke to me while I had Angie's iPod playing in my ears, seeking Him in Subway. And seeking His love. Because ministry is supposed to be spillover love! I can't help but leak it.
And I was far from it so I knew I had to come back into God first before I could even do anything...
Then, God spoke to me, encountered me and told me He really loved me. And because He did, things to show His love for me, not just words, were coming my way. Gifts, people, blessings, tangible things, the way someone who genuinely loved someone would do, not just words. Yeah(:
And He understood the person that I am, and that I needed constant replenishment of love, not just memories, and maybe a bit more attention lavished on than other people, cause I have greater emotional needs, and He was so prepared to give me all of that. :D
And then He gave me a new name. Because honestly speaking, the name "Keann" was born out of a need to "act cool". To be cool, and liked by people. And while it has now turned into the name that symbolises the part when my life turned around and I was so blessed socially, and had so much fun, and so much more to life, and everything, and love, and so it is everything positive, God wants to give me a name with greater meaning.
Now "Qi En" means revealing grace, and so a great Christian name as well, but because it was in a period of my life where I endured so much hurt and pain and rejection and neglect, I associate it badly. I don't want to be called by it ever.
I mean, I'm sure "Saul" was a good name too, you know! But Paul needed to start over with a clean slate, and God gave him that with his name.
(:
And now I am "John". Because I am the disciple whom Jesus Loved. And it exemplifies the person that I am, how much more love and attention I might need from God than most people, and how He is so prepared to give me that.
Actually also from Tuesday I have "Samuel". When Theresa Dedmon prophetically anointed me with the words "Young Samuel". Yeah young Samuel, the young enthusiastic set apart for God boy that heard God's voice. Who grew up to be the fiery authoritative prophet that travelled all over the Promised Land, anointing David and Saul, and living in exciting and great times.
Wooooooo. :D
Haha. I shall need to study the stories and meaning of "Samuel" more, and "John", in order to fully take on their mantles and impartations. But yeah. Rawr. I take and receive what I understand now. Haha. YAY.
Thank you God! [:
So anyway, I rested today. Just kept right on resting. Dwelling in God's love. Haha. I mean, despite me having gotten all the treasure hunt clues for Holland V, I don't actually have to go there! God still loves me, I don't have to do it to fulfill anything or to seek approval. Everything has already been done, it is finished. This is just meant to be an outpouring of love, and how can I do that if I don't feel loved, and am not secure in it!
I mean to bear real fruit, not artificial man-made fruit from striving. :D
And because of that, now I have a greater understanding of rest! Yay. Haha. Thank you Dad! And Jesus and Holy Spirit. Raahhhhh. Hahahahah (:
Oh man I really need to set aside a time for journalling. Haha. Time is set back now and I gotta figure out the cell plan for Hearing God's Voice, in light of SSM teaching, and pray for it, do Medlaw? Yishe those questions scare me ><
Haha oh God. I love You. Yeah (:
YAY I JOURNALLED. (:
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