Maybe less questions, more worship, more trust.

You want the right answers because you want to know what to do.
But maybe you could just let God do it, worship Him instead, and do what he's already told you to do - in His Word.

Far worse things you could be doing really, Keann.
Seek ye first the kingdom. And choosing not to act on worry & fear for your future. Though you may still have em. But acting based on trust. Which is a choice.

God's going to handle it anyway.
You might as well let him. Don't worry so much about how you're gonna be feeling during the whole thing. The ending score will still be the same.

I hope you're taking care of yourself.
I hope God's taking care of you.